@pathfinder What a nightmare this or other parties can be. Although I did use to enjoy some family gatherings as a kid, prob because I was disregarding rules & family (especially my Mom’s side) was so great at letting me be!
The clothes I have given up even having in my wardrobe. I have dark 501 Jeans 👖 & those are now the most formal clothes I have. I just put on a nice m comfy shirt. Even for weddings (which I don’t go to) & funerals (rare), I have no different clothes. But as a kid, the discomfort from what my parents used to insist I wear!
What a great description mof many holidays or group events. Socially I’m more of a 1-on-1 kind of person. Always will be. I can stretch to 1-on-2, maybe 3 for a total of 4. But the more the gloomier…
Christmas is also exhausting just going out shopping right before, and getting ready. This year I just couldn’t for a panoply of reasons and I just end up feeling bad, like I failed while everyone who overdid it around me succeeded though many are sick or depressed or exhausted or all of the above from overdoing it. Is that the example to follow?!
Holidays are bitter sweet to me. Sweet as far as child memories when my Mom used to run herself down with sometime the inevitable depression after… oftentimes I really don’t understand the world around me.
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