Seven days left omg 😸
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@kianga Is there a process for inviting people to Masto? I'd like to get my Tigress here as well :)
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So, time for a small recap of my transition progress January through December. I started experimenting with my look the previous year, but didn't really commit to transitioning until February 3. What followed was breaking a ton of internal resistance about going outside female-presenting, in particular wearing skirts and dresses - but by April it became a regular Tuesday for me (given that my whole life I was running near minimum for T and near maximum for E, this shouldn't surprise me, but it did).
April 20 is when I picked up the full diagnosis (paid for out of pocket of course), and April 30 is when I started HRT. A month later my T was nuked - unhealthy 50mg of Androcur per day does that - and E was happily rising until around August, when I decided on surgery. By September everything was set up (I was actually choosing an orchi date while at EF28, sitting in the CCC courtyard), but the stress and fretting over everything left me a mess - and wiped out transdermal gel absorption, which meant that I got to experience the wonders of menopause.
Post-orchi and recovery I dumped anti-androgens and starting November switched to much more stable injections, and since then everything is going fine. I'm working on a more detailed breakdown of 2024, including major events like falling in love again - reciprocated! - and events that mean I'm going under the scalpel again in 25 days, for vaginoplasty. But for now, I'm happy tracking the evolution of this girl and the gradual passing of the old into obscurity.
And a sincere thank you to everyone who crossed paths with me and helped me stay on the path. You know who you are and I treasure each and every one of you.
A merciful 2025 to us all <3
[#]transgender #TransJoy #2024recap
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About 28 days left to my vaginoplasty. Lots of feelings. Lots of a certain je ne sais quoi in my head. I hope not to go off the rails in the next couple of weeks. But we're doing it.
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Chryslus Eve at my grandmother's. She's a 97 year old survivor of World War II and the only member of my blood family to not have given me grief over me being trans.
So this year we elected to handle the traditional dinner for her - and I wanted to look my best for her, because, well, she deserves to see me happy. Everything went well. She cheers me on my surgery next month and in general loves our little queer family.
Also, first time wearing a new bra. Off the shelf, since I'm still developing, but a B cup fits me nicely. So... An awesome evening, even though I'm struggling with raging emotions over the past month. Being sixteen again x3
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I still like the translation I did once.
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So, after having a bit of a tough day yesterday and crying a lot, coming to Poland doesn't seem as horrific as it was. Supercharged poom is able to tackle anything.
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Less than 24 hours left to the flight to London. I'm nervous, anxious, and incredibly, incredibly excited.
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I don't generally do it often, but 2024 is coming to an end and the financial stress is getting to my family: Between Tigress changing jobs and having no income in December, expenses with the previous surgery, and payments to cover mortgage and necessary loans for work tools (first computer upgrade in seven years so that I can continue my job), we're looking at a pretty lean January.
Which is also when I have my surgery, on January 27th. Booking the necessary travel and accommodations (for me, my Tigress and Alex, because I need my family beside me at the most important moment in my life) will push us in the red.
https://ko-fi.com/tagaziel
The goal is set for 700 Euro, as that's the co-pay amount I have to pay for the surgery. Cigna will cover the remaining 23 800 Euro, but as I'm not a megacorp, that amount of money is stressful.
If you would like to donate, please do - as long as you yourself aren't struggling and can spare, and don't have another person in dire straits to donate to. I don't want others to put themselves in harm's way on my account.
That's my job.
[#]MutualAidRequest #mutualaid #transgender
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Good morning. I'm happy with how I look today. Got an appointment for my CT next week to figure out which part of me to use as basis for surgery. Menaced the staff, because for some reason, F.64.0 referral for abdominal contrast scan to figure out my colon health in preparation for vaginoplasty is not a common request.
Introducing a little chaos into the world is delightful.
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This is what you asked for, heavy is the crown
Fire in the sunrise, ashes rainin' down
Try to hold it in, but it keeps bleedin' out
This is what you asked for, heavy is the
Heavy is the crown.
Living in my head rent free. Sums up my life over the past year.
And I'm not giving up.
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So... Just got confirmation from corporate that my surgery will be covered.
In full.
So this is a week full of tremendous positive surprises and developments, which is... Amazing, considering that encroaching darkness.
Madrid II will happen and I'll be whole.
What a year.
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Got new glasses and holy shit, I'm loving them. Hey <3
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The past week has been hectic and not just because my son turned seven. We have three months remaining on our private insurance, so we figured we'll take a shot at completing my surgical transition. The prices are about what you can expect (18K standard inversion, 24.5k using a colon fragment), and we'll be working with our insurance provider to cover it, since until coverage ends they will cover any claims as normal.
If not... Well, I am ready to go into debt over this. Might limit my ability to participate in mutual aid for a while, but I need this to live - so I guess we go once more into the fray.
Hope I get to pen the date in on the commission this February.
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I'm 36. I have never expected to be again on love. Especially the kind of love that burns inside you so hard and so intense you feel it burn away your flesh, fat, sinew, consume bone, and turn you into ash.
And you want it. You want to feel that. Because it's not painful at all.
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Survival tip: If you have a safe pub or bar or hang out to go to if you're #transgender, do so. I'm coming back from a couple of hours spent with my friends in a place where pretty much every staff member is either queer, an ally, or a close friend, and it keeps you alive.
Don't let yourselves get isolated and convinced you're alone. You never walk alone.
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I slept ten hours. I'm exhausted and numb. This week was one piece of bad news after another on nearly every topic. And now I'm waiting for a biopsy to figure out if I have thyroid cancer.
I spent the entire day yesterday crying once I got home and didn't have to keep it together. I think something in me burned out. All I ever wanted in my entire fucking life is a bit of joy and happiness. And now that I found it, it feels like something wants to snatch and take it away.
I know, rationally, survival rates, odds, everything, but honestly, all I want is a bit of peace. I want to salvage the years wasted by Michał, finally see the world and my friends. Twenty years of my life, wasted on fear and darkness.
Just give me this chance.
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I'm curled up and crying in bed, because I'm not taking the lab results well. I fear losing what I fought so hard to earn, this little bit of happiness I carved out for myself. Haven't felt this kind of anguish in years.
Why.
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My brain demanded I create this and share this with the world. So... How best to explain vaginoplasty to strangers?
Simple: Lego, but with genitals.
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