stories behind my finding and enjoyment of music, recent entries first
i choose songs to write about when i happen to think about them, so older favorites can show up as the most recent. dates are mainly for showing timeranges
jan 17, 2025
im not used to hearing noah lennox sing an actual subculture critique within anco/his usual psychedelic, mystical sound. it's so weird. like, porter robinson's pitchfork diss in russian roulette musically fits in that direct, electropop context. this song is definitely an inappropriate vehicle for the message but the song is good.
oct 16, 2024
You'd fit perfectly to me and we'd end our loneliness
Melt this curse away
Though I'll never know your name I'll cry for you the same
i know this is supposed to be about a soulmate you have no chance of meeting, like how choosing any given number on the real number line from [0, 1) has a probability of 0. especially with the lyric but like how many listeners of this song enjoy interpreting it as an ode to internet friends, only ever knowing their nicknames despite knowing them for a decade or more. but... relevant irl situation that falls into neither of those. the yearning
aug 13, 2024
thank you tosinochoclo for listening to this artist a few days ago. the album covers and the titles definitely seemed to emphasize the "house" of "witch house" so i was hoping it sounded at least somewhat like the bliss of naked flames. and i was satisfied. i don't really like the coldwave-ness of a lot of witch house but it meshes well with these vocals
jul 25, 2024
(moved from journal.gmi)
i don't get why no one talks about postlude to 5 years of hurting. it's this really grounded melancholy emo masterwork... like "btw, that untitled song on your mixtape was for you. i wrote it when i missed you." has this cheer and poppiness despite the topic that postlude doesn't, and postlude is all the more powerful for lacking it. the most recent messages i have ever seen about postlude date to 2014... it's such a beautiful song though.
jul 18, 2024
the title reminds me of another song i like, pinkshinyultrablast's i catch you napping. both shoegazey but the other song is less noisy.
krautrock? too broad to love. noise rock? too broad to love. i love noise. often find myself disliking most kraut- and noise rock but things i do like also often fall in those influences. i like when tracks jam over a riff like this. like the live version of television's 1880 or so, which i only heard because i was planning to give her that live at the academy vinyl for her birthday and was unsure if we could maintain a friendship to then. i think we are still on fine enough terms that i can do so, but im sad about her distance. a lot of people interpret this closer as about moving on. i want the power to move on. i was listening to the top 200 shoegaze tracks of all time on rym and enjoyed this song before realizing she used to really like yo la tengo, but not the album this is on, painful. it's a really harmless fact but ive made a mental note to stay out of her music taste that we dont already somewhat share, and when i falter, i am mostly able to still stay away due to not liking that artist i tried. this time it was an unconscious choice but i still feel guilt. even though it's acclaimed artists that she likes, and obviously theyd show up in top listings.
i remember the days we spent jumping off those boulders at the lake, the nights spray painting cartoon characters under the overpass. i remember skateboarding in parking lots during lunch and watching old horror movies with all these people that i cared about. these things have shaped my life and my person, but they are not me. the real me is between the highlights, buried in the monotony of days that went by without a memory, the monochrome calendar wherein one's true identity resides. the days where we go to work, eat dinner alone, and go to bed empty. within that dim light of reality, these days force us to recall those bright colors of the past with ephemeral longing, before the constrictions of our responsibility force us to return to the life we have chosen instead. we are haunted by ghosts of the past and the future, recollections of brighter days looming over us while the obscurity of our path fills us with fear. we make memories on the weekends only to remember them with bittersweet desire after the languid animosity sets in. the sensation has been called many things, but perhaps most of all, it's just painful.
flyingsexsnakes, a user who originally rated painful 2.5/5 -> 4/5, 2015-09-02 or later
Yo La Tengo’s Painful is a series of such moments; a collection of hazy, half-remembered ghosts from the past that rush back to you late in the night
lagladiator 2024-01-25
jul 17, 2024
i love this song. originally i only liked the first song off this self-titled 1993 single but after seeing the talk abt the second song being gay i had to check it out a second time. also the first song does a weird clipping thing near the beginning that makes me think my earbuds broke
You want to kill me for feeling love
And you tell me I'm wrong to show these emotions
And you feed me the standards of living I choose not to obey
And most of all you tell me I'm sick
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You don't even know me
You don't even know the person inside of me
Why won't you accept me? Tell me why
I am real and what I feel is so fucking real
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I'm in love
I'm in love
I'm in love
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Homosexuality is not a disease
And I'm not
And I'm not sick
im not too sure how i found julia because my listening history from when i first listened a few days ago says i just listened to melos han-tani's ambient vgm all around julia, and parannoul's new single right before julia, but i found that single from a twitter user. maybe i found julia just from looking at screamo related artists?
what the fuck the top listener for this song purely listens to parannoul's new single what a coincidence
=> https://www.last.fm/user/MangoMuncher69/library
jul 13, 2024
there are no official lyrics so here is some of my transcription (lazy)
maybe it's the time to run away from here...
just... you and me
idk where i got this from. oh i originally was trying to post the lyrics for follow me
butterflies...
i feel your touch
i still love you
...maybe i'm wrong
follow me
come by my side
jun 21, 2024
is virgin babylon records actually goated with it? i am hearing some mid songs mixed in with good songs in "one minute older" which is a really good track record for a compilation. made-mada is so soft.
routing: thinking of ivy ruth bloodsadx's thoughts on taste curation -> she replies or boosts kaho matsui a lot -> check out kaho, i dont like the songs with pitched up autotune but i really like a lot of the instrumental ones -> check out kaho matsui - swingset radio as thats my favorite song from her -> i end up hiding like 30 diff songs that suck but go-qualia manages to stay. i check out their requiem and the vocal sampling in that is so good. -> check out the compilation go-qualia - unus is on. it purely has 1-1.5 min songs.
virgin babylon records actually has so many good artists its crazy. i dont fuck with numero group anymore they dropped the ball on their curated funk/soul, virgin babylon may actually be the harta of music.
i like that all these idm tracks related to swingset or in the comp are so short cuz i will actually be able to meet listening goals despite not listening to music as much as last month, and i like that they are from artists i have never heard of, or arent in my top artists because i dont want to displace my alltime top artists who have 3+ min songs with artists who have shorter tracks
update: after finishing the conp, virgin babylon is not goated with it. kinda strong openers tho
jun 8, 2024
been feeling bad the entire day. listening to bl4ck m4rket c4rt, he's good. i thought, im kinda getting tired of this, especially his voice, but i need to continue hearing these hopeless, lethargic lyrics. but even though bl4ck m4rket c4rt sounds like other things ive heard, i can't think of anyone else who does solo vocals, topics of lethargy and depression, and keeping the music very calm. like i knew carissa's weird was in the same vein but everytime ive heard them i dont like it. so i hit up rym
=> https://rateyourmusic.com/charts/top/album/all-time/g:slowcore/d:suicide/
weirdly only 25 albums
and started digging through a few things on the chart. i didnt listen to the album by oh raven girl since i thought, rating is kinda low, but i went to their artist page and saw the title "i am still mentally in last fall" on a more recent album. i thought, this is kinda me and even though the album didnt have any descriptors i assumed it still still had the same depression themes.
i listened to the beginning of the album and really liked the repetitive synth melody in luna but didnt like the faded vocals. i liked hearing "arrowheads" though. because "arrowheads, arrowheads, arrowheads..." is a goated lyric and the story is incredibly cool even though i dont sonically enjoy bloodhail. i wanted to fully know the lyrics. checked out oh raven girl's bandcamp, the track "luna"'s lyrics overall dont contain too much story or depth or any specific things that one could latch onto but the next songs are promising. i will try them when i am less busy.
from bl4ck m4rket c4rt, i really like
bright lights and yellow walls help me out of bed
together i die and i've never felt so alone
there's a knife in the puke
we're both so tired today
from "i am still mentally in last fall" i havent heard but enjoy:
your soft memory, it all rusts away
everyday has been the same as the last
i'm sick of this loop you put me in
summer ecstasy memories
and overall, the themes of looping and being mentally stuck and the expressions of that are very evocative
on their bandcamp they have an idm/techno project and ive been looking for something like naked flames and this project really captures what i love from naked flames. like the slightly grainy synths, all the reverbed to hell melodies and that continuous pulse
i will try out dandelion hands next, i heard a few songs before, didn't like his style, but his lyrics are really great as well.
jun 2, 2024
after writing
i love hearing enthusiastic voices interwoven, from outside in the evening, after theyve diffused all the way up to my window from hundreds of feet away. they're so warm. i wish i recorded them, i am never hearing these again because im at a lower floor next year.
i was reminded of the warmth and nostalgia this song invokes, like the hushed, soft vowels of the voices i was thinking about, and am now looping it. unfortunately, web scrobbler doesn't automatically keep tracks that are not in an allowed category in its list of videos it will continually scrobble. i have to hit scrobble anyway every time the song restarts.
i had tried their album "my name is..." before but i didnt enjoy it. sometimes i heard the popular tracks and also didnt enjoy it. on may 5th, i believe i was listening to this playlist called "nyctophilia" by an abriction fan and i heard this song amidst the cure, radiohead, jane remover, and assorted rymcore artists. i wasn't into the sampled vocals but i loved the melancholic guitar and drums. the music itself feels like waning memories of summer, like reminiscing about hanabi festivals.
i hate to repeat this topic again but i want to keep my memories intact; only due to the artist and track name, i think of her. i mean, she basically rejected me, and i dont know her name, and will never know her name. that same day, i asked if she was going to keep in touch with people from college and she said some people, but she doesn't want to think about graduation yet. am i included? who knows... i dont feel like a particularly useful or insightful friend for her. i should just lose myself in the droning synths and not revisit this train of thought.
i've listened to the album, the now now and never, in full now and i still only enjoy that unrequited feeling. the other tracks' synth melodies feel really generic and directionless, however i was reminded: i was mainly thinking of the title track for tracks that distort the sounds of conversation, and that was applied really well.
jun 1, 2024
=> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OXltGl2eOEY
wait bulssazo is so goated Omg omg im switching this from the previous song this was about (why hip hop still sucks in '16) fuck that song that song's nice but boring
waaaaaaaaaa so noisy, warm, and energetic this is so good. i forgot i could love new music. i have never actually loved any of the new music ive heard in whole for the past month, nor really Loved any music at all, other than snippets of live music. like ashra is the closest to joyousness but this is resplendent in it oh my god. in march or so i kept thinking what music could cure my self-hatred, anhedonia, constant negativity? ashra couldnt do it but i liked how hypnotic ashra was. sonic coaster pop couldn't do it and felt more shallow than before. honestly bulssazo could do it.
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this is so nice. i have had bulssazo bookmarked on last.fm since march 8, during a run of me bookmarking korean shoegaze bands, but didn't check them out until today, after revisiting the parannoul sonemic interview. this goes hard! very nice instrumental shoegaze with tinges of math.
"bug-infested floorboards—can we please just leave this place, now." may have been the first song that i liked from bla, it's now too long ago to even remember. crumbling. but then i rethought it and disliked it. but 6-7 months later, i enjoyed it again. i think this was after my entry. i also like masked dancers much more than i did during the time of my previous entry.
im so glad i linked
=> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0ctYShEa5Fo
on 2024-04-15. i never ended up finding the user ana again, but i needed this link. galactic hole unlisted this video. i dont hit the like button on videos. i didn't link this video in any server. its just one you contemplate on yknow? link all your favorite videos for the moment when the creator inevitably cringes at their past sentimentality and removes them from public view. better yet, download them...
i remember hearing masked dancers and just got back and really disliking them mainly for vocals, but gradually growing to think the instrumentals weren't good either. joking with a friend who also hated his voice about adam being castrati. my previous entry here about bla talked about how twinkle park did not turn it around but i still occasionally retried them. timing-wise, the retry of bla that made me like them was literally after i met her for the first time and we talked about music. i remember talking about how i dont like slint. i still don't. i didn't have any feelings for her back then. i feel like this thought of the meeting causing me to outpace her in bla scrobbles has come to me this year but i never really dug into it. she probably didn't recommend them to me but indirectly, she is the reason this band isn't as irrelevant to me as any of radiohead's discography. i would've said to see the next part of the dream, because i dont like it sonically at all. but even when i hadn't heard white ceiling - demo, i sometimes thought of his lyrics on self-disgust, alienation, nothingness, losing everything and everything meaningful long since become crumbling fragments. the reason i even listened to white ceiling demo was because i was thinking of the final version's lyrics. i remember that i meant to listen to let's walk on the path of a blue cat and white ceiling / black dots wandering around months ago but only completed that this week
A dried up cityscape
My twisted personality
My forgotten past
My distorted memories
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Disturbing noise buzzing on my ears
My growing anxiety
My forgotten future
My sense becoming numb
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Yesterday's like today
Today's like tomorrow
Tomorrow's like yesterday
Nothing has changed
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Even on sunday morning
Even on monday morning
Even on friday evening
Nothing has changed
i also kept misremembering "i can feel my heart touching you" as "i can feel your heart touching mine", the physical closeness like ufoshock's tearful multicolored work, Interlaced Bliss. i wish the threads of connection weren't shaped in that horizontally straight though. even though they curve due to perspective it doesnt feel dynamic. i wish i could have that intertwining with someone.
back to the point though, previously, every time i thought about brave little abacus, i always thought of it as solely my material. i view my music taste as all mine, anything other people directly try to put me on simply doesn't work. its all just been intentional discovery. a few times, ive noted that in catering certain radio sets to a certain genre or vibe, it ends up containing a lot of music that certain friends really like. i see that just as overlap or a sense of my taste encompassing theirs but selfishly thinking, its mine!
like, in untitled, the bombast of the drums that's just so perfect to me, the riffs twinged with melancholy and the horns, the focus on the moon, the regrets, the antisociality and lone contemplation, the chimes, the commonalities with heccra - fox, this shit is so special...
And rest assured that I won't ever have to care
About anyone, because it's too late
its always too late (adam was 17 when he wrote these lyrics and he thought it was over but it wasnt but bla is over and i literally dont know anything about anything and its over)
also worth mentioning that this person is so unreachable its easier to imagine physically climbing up to the moon
fuck its literally me
excerpt from jul 4, 2022
friend: last song you rlly rllly rlly rllly liked???????
me: if i check it its still souls....
me: if i check my playlist by recently added**
me: but before that, like twinkle park - dont come around here no more
me: which is a cover of the brave little abacus's
friend: tbla overrated
friend: sue me
me: yeah i dont even like tbla
me: i tried that one album and his voice doesnt work well with the music
friend: vasectomycore
friend: bro got that castrati voice
i needed this video to slightly cheat at listening to music and hear really magical clips of bla. on may 31st, i accidentally forgot to stop listening to aivi & surasshu's instrumental work on the steven universe future soundtrack because i was so locked in on refactoring my code and it was quite good. so i actually overscrobbled.. didnt actually have to sit in silence most of the time because i was listening to either some random ppls' dj sets outside or vcing or playing the rpg shiner which does have nice bgm despite the odds.
i didn't actually rewatch this specific video to cheat, i used his other video on bla that was linked in the comments and strangely, not unlisted
=> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hZdwdiW5bFA
may 21, 2024
so, may 16, i was listening to a 23hr folktronica/ambient pop playlist (i just searched up folktronica on spotify, looked at user playlists -- the first i listened to had consistent annoying, overbearing melodies so i switched to the 23hr one) and only ended up liking a few songs. one of them being grand prix by oh, yoko. its a pretty song, played it when i had aux on a trip to a record fair. but the volume was originally so low that you could only hear the generic, but nice, beat lol.
someone in an art server im in recently (may 13) asked for drone recs and i just saw a lot of bandcamp links as replies, didnt check them out or remember any names. but i revisited the conversation a few times and yesterday i finally listened to a few of the links. celer - something cathartic. it was nice and calm, i would listen to their entire discography. today i felt like listening to oh, yoko - i love you... in full and really liked this song. then i read the oh, yoko bio on last.fm (accessed from one of my most used apps, pano scrobbler) and celer is one of the two musicians in it. apparently ive listened to a celer album in 2021 and in january 2022 i was looking for ambient where almost nothing happened at all, and happened to add celer to a playlist of all suitable songs i found. its crazy cuz celer was just a name to me. in january 2022, i didnt even remember i had heard them in 2021. but the wikipedia page, the acclaim, the existence in oh, yoko is crazy to me.
i love how the vocals have this serene, resolving melody. its such a good phrase
feb 4, 2024
the vocals and instrumentals seem very disconnected from each other but the simultaneous existence of them sounds good.
revisiting strawberry hospital, even though i didn't like her music because "a confession, a cadaver" is such a good title -> i ended up liking endo, most of grave chimera, first two tracks of halfawake -> vocaloid trance -> turquoisedeath is in a playlist named "vocaloid >> dnb / trance" despite the song being neither, and also it wasnt vocaloid. i didnt and dont enjoy turquoisedeath but -> i like checking out artist profiles even if i dont like their music, turquoisedeath has an "acid time" playlist -> which has this
jan 3, 2024
holy fuck, beautiful. drums guitar vocals everything's right. got here from abriction's cover of joy division - disorder (the cover is fire, i hadnt listened to all of unknown pleasures before, and hadnt heard the really nice instrumentals of disorder. i had heard billy cobb's bluegrass cover but i dont remember anything about it) -> kiyosumi - disorder, disbelief comes up in the search for "disorder" -> blushʕ ꈍᴥꈍʔ is a related artist -> they have a shoegaze project -> the snow will catch us once again. ive not been feeling good on most new shoegaze ive heard this month: pinky lemon disappointed, i don't like novulent, and there is not much pulling me into okay releases, they are just fine to listen to but not exuding playlist material. this released dec 25, 2023, a christmas miracle
abriction's tracks on the split are so fire. i forgot how i found this but i put it in my to listen a few days to weeks ago, and i originally found sadness a year ago through discover weekly though i didnt enjoy them, music seemed bland. way more often than before, i do not know the real original source of how i know something, only that i wanted to listen to it. i love screamo vocals i love screamo vocals i love screamo vocals, shoegazing guitar, her voice or effects on it is really unique in a compelling way. the fullness... stuck between quotients... lyrics about kissing a girl. music is so chill too, post-rock. i want screamo vocals everywhere now. abriction is also insanely cracked. producing since at least 12, hopped onto hyperpop in 2019, only fucking posts keeb, tony hawk underground 2, and thugpro videos outside of music
jan 1, 2024
just noticed the account ☆TEETH☆ was deleted from soundcloud, so this track is lost forever, i didn't download it and there are only 2 people who have listened to it on last.fm so no luck trying to find an archiver. it had a gentle acoustic guitar and girl vocals. a few verses but i can only somewhat remember the first. i found it just through soundcloud's algorithm at the time.
there are worms in me
there are worms in me, i swear
i feel them [?]ing through my skin, i feel them crawling in my hair
nov 26, 2023
this is so good. she consolidated this in her jestfest upload to streaming, which mistakenly got me to think this was part of ...and the birds are all dead! but it is not.
ear candy melodies. yesterday i was trying to listen to music to pass the time and revisited elizabeth whitington. apparently she released new music yesterday, but i just checked out her stuff on streaming. rn im listening to her new album. i transcribed her rant in my uselessness caught on tape!!! :0 as the beginning makes a point about self-hatred i haven't really heard before. the premise is easily broken but it's interesting. the instrumentation near the end is too on the nose though.
oct 12, 2023
really sweet song. there are servers im in where #special has hours-long slowmode and there are barely any posts, like 1:50th of normal server activity. only contains posts to be truly adored. the first half of this song would be a #special post. even in middle school i was in awe of this song, but i enjoyed the second half more than i do now. the speedy chirps, ia's tuning, the bass.. the one whining instrument.. the detuned sawtooth.. the woes of a weakling. the first half is like woah. the second half is settled in, doesn't do much new, no cause to devote myself to it. the only kagepro appreciator i know here is sofa fan, and strangely, i knew more in high school. i was reminded of this song by a username, a misspelling of brave boy. it probably didn't come from this.
sep 2, 2023
i love hazel music new hazel Fka as Twinkle Park New smiling broadly Fka Twinkle Park@! didnt know of this ep 2 days ago, aug 31st, but video got recommended from my subscription today. i don't really have any mechanisms in place to know about new releases immediately unless they say it weeks or so earlier, this seemed out of the blue
impish thing is a lot like whichever song has the lyric ~"i used to pray for revenge", i think on goat rock from touched or been touched by. less obscured though. on touched or been touched by, she didnt release lyrics, and no one has the actual lyrics. surely people isolated the vocal stems, ive seen just as unintelligible vocals from other songs and theyve figured it out.
she says she doesnt mind if someone figures it out then text-laughs at interpretations saying they're really off. there's no other release as abstruse. impish thing is great. need to listen to it more for more description of what makes it great but im on my first ep listen
sep 4th: its just classic bombastic twinkle park, classic eleanor forte tuning, that's why its good. i love the pingponging /ɛːːː/s. i dont know if i like the short shoegazey phrase, doesn't really fit. honestly, i dont enjoy the rest of this ep, but they are all outtakes so it makes sense. still excited for the full album. impish thing has more variety than love slave, has less out-of-the-blue choices that dont work out for me than both love slave and patterns of behavior. impish things has better eleanor tuning than puke. patterns of behavior bridge is really pretty though.
fuck it im going to try to decode on goat rock. it's one of the clearest on that ep. i keep installing and uninstallying uvr5 i dont wanna do it againnn. 1. impossible soul, fuck the vocals i only like the instrumentation. 2. duja film, cant hear what hes saying
i used to pray for revenge, but now i only pray for relief
making promises i know i can't keep, as a safeguard for my friends[?]
historic buildings and local delis
then tech various meetings by [?]
and your new place, resting on your collarbones
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i wanna get this for me/forming[?]
i wanna know what happens tonight [?] (aɪ wɑnoʊ wʰæpən tunaɪ)
this time, i need this
i wanna get this for me/forming[?]
i wanna know what happens tonight [?] (aɪ wɑnoʊ wʰæpən tunaɪ)
this time, i need this soon
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you smiled, down at me
so[?] that's breaking waves
ear to fucking ear
and i couldn't feel a thing
no grief, not for beautiful fəl hæntsɪ[?] behind me
but you didn't seem to mind, or even notice
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i wanna get this for me/forming[?]
i wanna know what happens tonight [?] (aɪ wɑnoʊ wʰæpənz tunaɪ)
this time, i need this
i wanna get this for me/forming[?]
i wanna know what happens tonight [?] (aɪ wɑnoʊ wʰæpənz tunaɪ)
this time, i need this soon
jul 30, 2023
one time i came across a musician informal network and i thought it was a weird discord server offshoot of monkey and the permavirgins and bedroom skramz/diy jams, but it's literally r/cshfans. i didnt connect with any of the music but jackie ward seemed like i might enjoy with more listens.
i think i found matpv through traversing last.fm for artists, maybe directly or through users. but i listened to their covers and some of them were kinda decent at times. just generally a novel listening experience. i shared them with my irl friend near the end of high school. like we were at the front gates for some reason, maybe a drill or leaving afterschool. probably leaving. i dont talk to them anymore rip.
i listened to 1 and 2 and a good chunk of csh discog before seeing csh irl, but not disjecta membra or 3 or 4.
a few days ago i got recommended the video "why i love the song 'bodys' by car seat headrest". it made me want to relisten to famous prophets (pains), which made me want to listen to disjecta membra, so i did. then that made me want to listen to 3 and 4, so i did. portrait of the artist as a young fag stood out. i listened to it a year ago when it was recommended but i thought it was mid. now it's pretty catchy. even made me remember which forums i have an account on. i searched for it for subsequent listens and saw carter c's cover but didnt open it, as i have listened to their music before. instead i listened to the song again obviously.
but i think incubus elegy or drabb's cover and r/cshfans covers car seat headrest were in the recommended for that video and i was interested. content i might lose i watch first. i like incubus elegy's included story in their cover. for the collection of covers, the same avoided cover from carter c was actually the first. hansuuuuu's cover of the drum is really good, unfortunately they are nowhere to be found anymore. the fencesitters' cover of blid, eh.
then i listened to the later collection. the fencesitters' cover of fill in the blank is way better than the original. like i dont even enjoy the original and they made me like fill in the blank. as a concept, not the original execution. love me some arpeggiated synth :'). and coded oxygen's homes made me like homes. that riff is actually catchy. with the christmassy lo-fi synth additions. and this high to death made me like high to death. i dont like high to death on ftf because of the ending, and mtm didn't pull me in enough. but this is good. actually made me like mtm high to death. i love n1cl's overdrive. i love its saturation. i love distortion. the execution of "ground" and the "i can't turn this thing off, it keeps following me / used to be so human, now it's just a machine" verse is nice. mtm doesnt have that verse.
it is the first thing ive downloaded from newpipe. i usually dont bother with getting bandcamp music on my phone.
jun 13, 2023
cute noise pop. found from brand new's (not the emo brand new) cover of caramelldansen using miku and crystal castles guitar. awesome white noise smashes. way better than the original song (girls - laura)
may 16, 2023
cute song before the spooky dissonant ending. ive described her music before, but it's really pleasant, slow piano-focused music a level above midi. but machine noises also, this time. i vaguely recognize the video the tts voices come from, but not really. just the concept of two surveillance speakers in a feedback loop. its really good for a scrapped song off her first ep.
update jul 17, 2024
lyricposting time
1: i love you as much as you love me
2: i love you more than you could possibly imagine
1: i love you so much i can't breathe
2: i love you so much that quadratic equations couldn't describe it
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1: i love you so much that my heart feels that it will burst
1: how much do you love me, love?
mar 5, 2023
polyphia just sounds samey most of the time. not sure if i mentioned this before but after i enjoyed so strange, i checked out nlnd multiple times over the years and it's just never memorable despite some theoretically insane collabs. today i watched the wired tim henson vid
=> https://yewtu.be/ulchAKGi_Y0
and playing god sounded really good in it, but when i checked out the album version that awesome syncopation that was very articulated in the vid became more jumbled and in general it's not as crazy as the commenters made it seem. the whistling section is kinda good tho. also, the contest fan covers of playing god go so fucking hard. then i listened to abc and i really like the riff and drums that go with the abcdefghijkl.. part. sophia's vocals are weirdly fitted for all the other lyrics however. whole album feels fresher than nlnd. then i see they collabed with anomalie which is kinda funny because i already associated both polyphia and anomalie with the same type of redditor audience. i used to watch some of anomalie's streams and he would obviously always go hard on the keyboard even if it was just brainstorming. happened here too, good integration with polyphia. really fun song!
the chorus of this song is really good. a few weeks ago i just queued 350 songs or so from various user playlists, many of which i dont remember, and about 80 of them were removed when i accidentally played a song on another device. 仮設5号機 by this band was one of the songs that wasnt lost and it was pretty interesting. came from tokenainamae's Japanese girly voices playlist. [aside: i dislike the mixing on tokenainamae's music (shoegaze) but everyone loves her and if the mixing changed, i'd probably love her too.] the vocalist mostly just spoke without any lilt, which wasn't that appealing to me but it's a texture that usually isnt there. also, the instrumentals from the section at 2:20-2:41 are soulful.
this past hour i felt like listening to more of their catalog. 魔法少女 was beautiful the first time i heard it but i replayed it a bit later and some of the magic was gone. her voice in the chorus is just so sweet and yearning. plus the song becomes less boring indie rock and becomes more gazey. good stuff
jan 22, 2023
disliked bla the first to probably fiftieth time i heard their music starting maybe 2018? mainly because of adam's vocals but sometimes the instrumentals felt lackluster. it confused me so much how some of my favorite musicians listed bla as one of their main inspirations. then march 2022 i heard twinkle park's cover and she made don't come around here no more (please) sound so good, so i listened to the original and slowly grew to like that too. but just got back from the discomfort and masked dancers were still bad. then some just got back tracks started sounding ok but not good. then i enjoyed 1 kara's walk home song which got me feeling friendlier to the type of vocals adam and william have. late november and december, slowly started liking the first half of just got back. masked dancers sucked. came to think masked dancers had songs that were between mid and good. sometimes the lyricism hits, other times it elicits a 'huh'. after i listen to the same song like 7 times i think this sucks now and i have to wait for my friendliness to refresh (this doesn't happen with other songs i enjoy)
hazel's version of the bridge went so hard, can't say the same for bla's. but the keys are fun accents and i love the somberness of whatever the ending's instrument is (harmonica?). the lyrics are really good
While you can’t definitively say it’s about the band breaking up, it’s definitely about the dissolution of a friendship that had an impact on Adam’s creative identity during BLA ... his resolution to let go of that flailing, one-sided friendship and move forward ...
i first learned of chenta tsai in 2020 when they remixed sorry bro (i love you) and it ruled. listened to some other chenta tsai and they didn't stand out. earlier this year i wanted to present that remix for spanish but my teacher had some guidelines and i dont think this alias wouldve been appreciated so i presented a ska song instead. a few days ago someone posted their top 10 2022 albums and put putochinomaricón's new one on there, so i decided to check it out. some of the tracks are decent, some would be good without the feature, and rubberhand is pretty compelling! love when musicians make serious, gentle instrumentals for songs with shitposty lyrics or titles. this one does mainly have serious lyrics but im referring to the sounding one. love the e e e e repetition and house section, every once in a while i spend a few hours listening to house and trance but never end up with any tracks i like
checking out their music videos and they are either extremely gay or full of wojaks
nov 19, 2022
two days ago, i saw pyu artwork of a cute white-haired entity with a floppy hand swimming with an albacore in thigmotaxis, seagreen balance. i checked out pyu's blog and i realized they're kyu_anon. they reblogged some art (i later learn the artist was vampirecalendar) where a girl advertises slashpattern - advice and says it is on all streaming services and cd, bandcamp embed. i listened to the first track, it's mid. but it made me realize pyu likes 5th wave emo nice. checked out the album's bandcamp page, name your price download. listened to it on loop for a long time. was a mix of mid and kinda appealing. some tracks' non-synth vocals made me think of a.g. cook, in a good way, even though i dont really like a.g. cook's vocals. listened to advice a lot more trying to figure out if i enjoy it. the opening to library books reminds me of hazel's video music. slashpattern's eleanor forte usage is really good, very organic. a lot like twinkle park. that's in opposition to ippotsk whose instrumentals especially basslines are really good and full of warmth but i can't really get into their vocalsynths.
good version of keep henrietta beautiful:
=> https://yewtu.be/watch?v=3FI__yUuHxY
nov 14, 2022
ive been sleeping on the go! team. in my head i was always like i gotta check them out and clear up my confusion between go! team and go! child, who i also hadnt heard. in june 2020, i heard a short version from aimkid's animation and tried the full ver out but i didnt enjoy it. then over time, i heard some rare croppings of the go! team in my discover weeklys that i couldnt form an opinion on. yesterday i was listening to asian glow's coverglow pt 1 and huddle formation stood out, even though i didnt like its repetition. then listened to the go team's version plus many versions of ladyflash. discovered kevin shields has a cover of huddle formation and ladyflash, crazy. now ive just been perusing their discography. a chorus of enthusiastic, lofi double dutch chants against shoegaze or twee guitars is really nice. im usually not fond of hip-hop where the backing track doesnt develop over time, the hip-hop sections in go team are a bit more my speed. even though there isnt that much development and every song could end way earlier, there is really fun energy in their music.
on bandcamp, weatherday recommends white spine shore's sweet relief and states that it was pivotal in the creation of come in. so i opened a tab for the album and maybe a week ago i finally listened to it. in total i heard the ep around 6 times in full and the instrumentals (and secondary vocals on sheets) are very good but the way she does vocals is grating. today i was looking at my last.fm page and saw the pic of white spine shore -- cute so i clicked it. mouseatouille is the first related artist so i searched them up and listened to the first result. it was this song. good square wave arps and fuzzy saturation! this could easily pass as incelcore, although with more instrumentation, more people working on it, and less incelcore fans. i then listened to out of the hospital and into the morgue but it wasnt as good as this single
in 2020, i bought the $5 itch.io bundle and browsed through the included games. secret little haven caught my eye because i had recently watched a few playthroughs of hypnospace outlaw (i now own hypnospace but havent had the time to finish it) and the era of late 90s internet + old forums appealed to me. so i played it and its ost is very good study accompaniment. lowkey and pretty melodies, pleasant textures, good development. one time i was reading a story on scribblehub (by someone with a gemini capsule, rooibos) and it mentioned pretty guardians love force - hey i know that!
oct 10, 2022
ive heard their music a few times and listened to some of their look! a rainbow! on june 2, the day after it dropped (when hazel twinkle park promoted it) but disliked the nasality of william's vocals and some awkwardness in the musical texture. but i tried kara's walk home again and this song is nice. good melodies! i have bad memories of the name kara but this band may change it
sept 9, 2022
yesterday someone posted this in a server im in. although im not a fan of most hyperpop (i think alice glass, underscores, cityhours/lytress, and dorian electra are the only exceptions so far), this is really good. angsty lyrics, the drive and pulsing synth in the chorus is very catchy. also awesome creative commons licensing
but in may this year i was reading a thread asking for album recs and learned the context and really got into the first glass beach album. dont like calico though lol. also heard ezra furman's transangelic exodus because of the thread but couldnt get into it. yoshi's island has great and memorable lyrics... the instrumentation is very chill and pleasant considering the subject matter. 100+ plays. i mostly listen to this when it hits. really want to see glass beach live
aug 12, 2022
last year, i got into jeff rosenstock. heard most of his discography, his past/side projects, some of their albums in full including get warmer and liked some from there and vacation. didnt enjoy the arrogant sons of bitches or antarctigo vespucci though but maybe that will change
yesterday i heard my playlist on shuffle, i dont love you anymore came up. thought why not hear get warmer in full again, so i did 3 whole times from yesterday night to today. the last 2.87 mins of the title track rules so hard. the articulation of the instrumentation in the later part of it heavily reminds me of detektivbyrån (good)
last month i was trying to get a read on what happened with sweet trip, checked a board's archives and found some shoegaze recs along the way. i'm slowly making my way through them. interestingly there were 2 the sleepwalk links, one to upon a brown ～エルフの死～ and another to snowman. "interesting" because i had this previous exchange of coaltar of the deepers' members' projects with the fnv person in their server, which has no cotd fans apart from them. they posted an album from sadesper records i posted the song pulv by watchman (both by narasaki). they posted an album from bp. i posted an ep by qubinoix (both by ichimaki). everything leads back to coaltar. i tried to get into that new idol metal group narasaki composes for, adelheid, to maybe continue the exchange but its not that good lol
back to the subject, from the recs, i heard hartfield - l.i.b.r.a in full and it's nice, need to get a feel for it more though. checked out their discog on spotify and really enjoyed girl like you. girl like you has this dissonant motif that is catchy. exemplary shoegaze guitar. the vocals are soft and so chill. also their cover of mbv - soon, is better than the original. that off-putting breathy haaa part is gone, mbv's clean guitar parts arent clean anymore. however i cant tell if i absolutely enjoy it
jul 23, 2022
same person who recommended me mitski posted about how good this song was last year, and it is. very chill song with soul. last month someone in my college lgbt server posted a link to green aphrodisiac. its kinda good but not as much as put your records on.
in 2017 i was a fan of egoist - the everlasting guilty crown. then i heard this being played at a tourney or as jump practice and its such a funky, kind of adventurous song. made a little antique edit of hatsune miku in a bakery setting, with the title of this song in 2019. i listened to it for a long while but when i switched to spotify i forgot to add it to my playlist. after a few years i relistened and it sucked, the vocals felt off. but recently i was going through my old art and found my edit, rerelistened and it was a banger.
yet another furry teenager's music. last year in the last.fm server, someone recommended transgender lain clones - recovering ancient artifacts from internet friendships for breakcore. i dont look at that server but somehow caught that and heard the full album. it was pretty mid. i forgot about him until now, when someone from the lj group qrted a red flag kin quotev (lol) thread with kokichi ouma... i went to the thread and someone named milo posted in it. immediately found out he was transgender lain clones, but i gave his stuff under gemini workshops a spin. the first song i heard, kick in the ass, was a mixed bag. had some jarring dissonance but also sampled sweet trip - chocolate matter, which made me hopeful for other tracks. the rest of his discog is musically awkward but has cool ideas. prototype two is a mix of rhythm game edm, breakcore tropes, simple jazz piano, and a flowing synth lead. plus the cool stuttering snare. his other tracks have nice jazz drum programming, love brushsticks.
jul 3, 2022
when i was 10 or 11 i saw a multi-animated project of brave as a noun that is now deleted or privated. i thought it was pretty good but edgy and i mightve looped it a few times. sometimes i listen to it thinking ill like it again but it's too short and not much happens instrumentally. recently someone in a server asked if anyone liked ajj, which made me try them out again. plus the alex rec. ive heard some of their popular stuff in the past and wasnt into it, so i opted for can't maintain. also, ive seen it mentioned positively and memed about (guy on the cover looks like sans). very energetic and good song. i dont listen to enough normal rock or punk to know how common it is but i enjoy the speedy ride cymbal bell groove. it reminds me of the climax of j-pop/rock osu farm maps, which were the hardest part of the map. they often had similar bell patterns. farm maps are played to gain rank quickly and are often short, so i heard them countless times through my own gameplay and watching others.
yesterday i was on a good music hunt. eventually metaroom came up in a mix i was queueing unknown songs from. i dont like their music, when enacore webcore and whatnot were popular in 2020 i heard them a lot trying to find music. i looked at metaroom's artist profile, their linked playlist, and then who they followed. there were interesting musicians i didnt know, and i queued up some songs from them. watchman caught my attention because their fans also listen to section had artists i knew in genres that were unrelated from one another. coaltar of the deepers, sonic dragolgo, plus-tech squeeze box, bogdan raczynski, luminousorange? How could this artist be similar to all of those. but i didnt listen to any of the music i just queued. at this moment i had been compulsively searching for and listening to new songs for a few hours and knew i had to stop. it takes up a lot of my focus to determine whether i like a song or not, and if i find something that seems interesting i feel required to listen to it.
today i played what i queued and heard alixy. i didnt enjoy it, but it had potential. i listened to watchman's next most popular song, springpour. it's pretty good. if a song has a bpm over 170 it has a higher chance of activating my neurons. in my hunt i heard many songs that dont develop past a short looping hook and it made me appreciate this song more because it does evolve. i also like the lack of transitions/immediate switch between some of its phases. need to keep that in mind for my own music.
in october 2021, sweet trip posted the flying lugaw's sangkap volume 1 playlist post to their ig story, since they were on it. the playlist just features filipino alternative (the broadest label ever). i checked the playlist out and expected just indie pop/rock, since that's how it was going. but there were some wacky songs, and underscores (trustfall! rules). it also had miya lowe - beat the shit out of the person, and it was interesting but not to my taste. it had lovable breakcore tropes but uncohesive layers. i listened to the rest of lowe's discography on streaming since it was so small. pinoy caught my attention. it was more cohesive, had good chops of vocal samples and breaks. a few other songs in sangkap are good too, easily my favorite playlist that isnt mine. it has the best ratio (1:5) of good songs to total songs in the dozens (maybe hundred) of playlists ive heard.
june 19, 2022
in 2019-20 a lot of the twitter accounts i followed posted about mou. they also posted peepy but i had no idea mou was the ceo of itemlabel, just thought they were a collaborator. i listened and had a distaste for their denpa vocals, neutral on the mario paint-like vocals. spotify discover weekly would recommend mou every now and then but still didn't enjoy their music. one time someone accidentally put me in as a vote to press vinyl of mou, pinged me if i wanted to, and i said no. thought: even if the music is quirky, dont press bad music. in archangel:nemesis, mou does a lot of songs. they would be good without the vocals.
recently, i searched up archangel:nemesis on spotify checking if the ost was posted, but the only that showed up was some teenager's (apparently they are 16 now) playlist. there were many mou songs in it but i didnt check it out. looked their profile and they have at least a hundred self-curated playlists, some even with mint tears, rish, kamome sano, sonic coaster pop, so i knew there was some gold here. listening to some of their playlists, there was legit so much shit no one listens to, and also Good denpa i added to my playlist. bless terminally online kids for knowing some of the best quirky music out there. then someone in babycastles posted a vod of mou apartment, the realtime irl robot-controlled, which is twitch-viewer-controlled, visual novel hosted in mou's apartment. with its crude art style, this was an irresistible video.
=> https://yewtu.be/y7BV0IbYuII
i havent watched it all but there's some really good instrumental mou songs played throughout what i watched (ex. at 20:05 but shazam failed to find the song ;_;). as a result, i decided to listen to the a:n playlist but it wasnt there... but build a vision was, which had also been played in the live vn. very good song, buzzy and droopy.
april 2021, was lurking on tumblr, as i usually do, never logged in. although i have an account from 2016, i have a flow where i go on firefox focus, go to a specific or random blog url, read through it and navigate its web of reblogs by opening interesting ones in new tabs. eventually i accumulate a lot of tabs and i wipe them all. i saw this post:
the lyric fragments of the microphones - the moon piqued my interest. i listened, and the drums, static, brass were great ornamentation to the vocals. i tried listening to the glow, pt. 2 a couple times and didn't get a feel for any other track, but today, i decided to listen to the album for the 5th time because i saw will toledo cover the moon, and am drawn to i felt my size and samurai sword.
early 2017. friend from the forum i used to go on raved about kagerou project, but i don't think i checked it out when they did. it was probably in the first few months of playing osu. my memory's really hazy on this, there's a few options of how i got into kagepro: 1. i saw a beatmap of the original kagerou days and then somehow found the himeringo cover on soundcloud; 2. liking other songs with osu maps on soundcloud, then the himeringo cover of kagerou days was recommended; 3. i enjoyed a himeringo song from a stream/map, checked it on soundcloud, and then the kagerou days cover was recommended or one of the top results. or maybe i did heed my friend's recommendations.
i started watching all the mvs, enjoyed them, except mekakushi code and yobanashi deceive. read the manga and watched the anime too. i consistenly listened to some favorite songs from shuffling my soundcloud likes or playing beatmaps of them... august 15, 2018 jin made an announcement that there would be a new album, and soon released the single additional memory with a music video. sidu's video art and editing skills improved so much it was insane. gorgeous atmosphere, known but tragic plotline. never lost word also had these aspects but it was much less flashy. pretty bassline, loud, energetic, good miku settings, unbelievably catchy. fell in love with it.
i found jin's cover of remind blue and loved it. was extremely hyped for the album to come out. when it did, it was all i listened to for a week, and i mainly heard it at school.
i havent watched the mvs for years now, although i hear the songs on occasion. should revisit them
june 1, 2022
even though i only discovered this song in april 2021, i can't remember how exactly i found it. it was either a youtube algo recommendation or from an imageboard music thread. no way my discovery had anything to do with gta, which is how most people found this song. chill song, good rhythm. vocaloid is a genre where most songs are easier to like for me. maybe vocaloid composers are simply better, the vocals are more appealing (with voicebanks and piano rolls, can't really be an amateur singer), or the stretched, synthetic whines charmed me.
in september 2021, i think mika morgues/mika [some other word]/calico lain, the youtube channel that weirdly wanted a monopoly of the scary jokes uploads when its not even her songs, had posted a new collection of the scary jokes demos, and then i checked their other videos... she sang a cover of this song and it was so good. so many pretty shimmering melodies, her voice was also soft and emotional. i thought she herself composed it, but looking into it, thejonymyster did. listened to it and the angel album its on through his bandcamp, mostly just clicked back to fallen angel. its drums are typical to the breaks i love. i'm not good at pitch recognition, but i badly wanted to figure out what melodies thejonymyster was using. just discovered calico lain's cover is unlisted or deleted. understandable.
wow this is amazing. woo yeah! yeah! yeah! woo yeah! extratone is too extra for me but this hits the spot. some minutes ago, i was playing a dance of ice and fire, thought of the 2 servers i'm in that have some relation to adofai (one with artists who did game props, the other with a rhythm gamer that has streamed it before), and in the latter, someone mentioned this insane level showing that adofai can be more than a 1-button game:
=> https://yewtu.be/ZzsAG8OJh9Y
frums! i've listened to them before, from experimental osu maps in ~2018 and trying to get into their sort of idm in my free time, and once checked their twitter. but it never hit right. this undertale remix had some cool breaks and otherwise wasn't too interesting but it had potential. the player's tapping really enhanced the beat. but i wanted to hear the song on its own. i searched it up and went to the soundcloud link, heard it, and thought about soundcloud's underrated recommendation algorithm i barely took advantage of. "beepbit ⁂ futures" is a cool title. instantly. so speedy and bright, woo yeah everywhere. the music rhythm games are meant for. for a hot minute i the name ああああ was unfamiliar, but then i remembered AAAA had an archetypal very cute rhythm game song that i only had liked on soundcloud or in my mind. just checked the song was hoshi o kakeru adventure ~ we are forever friends! the switch between romaji and hiragana versions of the artist's name is to replicate my memory, since osu uses romaji for all song fields, and that's where i found them in the first place (tourney).
may 22, 2022
it was late 2019 or perhaps january 2020, i was bonding with a senior on my decathlon team, who i had inklings of admiration for, through math rock. he talked about how cool black midi was, in particular, bmbmbm. bmbmbm isn't striking to me, but in a few days i listened to the whole of schlagenheim. western and reggae are so good. fun patterns, tension, release, satisfying melodies. listened to the john l / despair single many times and cavalcade once but they didn't click. listening to cavalcade rn and it's probably the vocals. the recitative doesn't fit in john l, the vocal melody in marlene dietrich doesn't enhance the song, chondromalacia patella would be so epic without vocals, etc.
one day in september 2021, i decided to listen to gezebelle gagurbably despite not enjoying her music for many months at the time. that day, pov: you're a corpse caught my attention. some hours later, i listened to gezebelle gagurbably's sanrio girl's song radio. for a few days in that time, i was lowkey infatuated with a girl in my literature class who had a lot of sanrio merch (kuromi backpack, assorted melody and kuromi charms) and listened to bring me the horizon. the song sanrio girl sounds bad but the enunciation of some phrases are earworms. julie - flutter was the second song in the song radio, and i was hooked. shoegaze? in an incelcore radio? in reality, julie had nothing to do with that scene, but the spotify and soundcloud algorithms were overzealous in putting flutter everywhere on people's discovers and mixes at the time.
flutter is very active in contrast to a lot of other shoegaze, the few tones it uses are very pleasing and reverbant, alex b. and keyan's voices fit so well. listened to more of them, originally only enjoying kit and skipping tiles. the mysterious gingerbread cookie recipe artist profile piqued my interest. checked out the band's instagram.
i noticed they performed at places i could go to for really low prices - down to $5 venues (and recently, one for free but i couldn't go). i asked an irl server if anyone wanted to go to an upcoming one and one person was down, so we bought tickets. they were $25->$35 with fees, 3 bands, which was alright. the only show i'd gone to previously was $10 for paranoid void and 3 awesome math rock-y bands. i had high expectations this time, and they were kinda met. one of the bands wasn't my taste, alex's vocals were different live but workable. copped a julie shirt and poster, they had good aesthetics.
soon, i compiled a pureref board with hundreds of art and photos by the band for fanart reference and also to archive the vibe. dillon's art is so good, with its simplicity, sharps, nice use of stiff and wobbly lines, cute proportioning, messy and plentiful cables, overcast atmospheres, warped shapes. in this time i started enjoying starjump and daisy pusher. starjump's vocals don't resolve much. this was off-putting at first, but i've grown accustomed.
i don't know when i first listened to reiyashi, but i remember listening to the whole of conversations with a river god when still active on twitter, either 2020 or early 2021. i found her through checking out emi fisher's twitter, either because i was perusing that sphere or her homoerotic bars in uk drill compilation video was making the rounds. ouroboros is a very chill, pleasant song for any occasion. the best track off the album. checked her spotify profile and golden boy is in the related artists... i only learned golden boy passed away in late 2021 yesterday... never thought people in the modern breakcore scene could just disappear completely.
in july 2021, someone from the record label server was in a fun fun fun phase, i remembered liking black dresses - static and nausea, so i tried it. this was the second song to make me cry in many years. the first was the title track. i was a my little pony fan in elementary, although my tv only had free-to-air channels. as a kid, i watched shitty react videos and dailymotion uploads of episodes and movies, played mlp games on the hub, accidentally encountered nsfw fan works and blogs. i stopped watching after season 4 or 5. last year i found a few good mlp streaming sites although all the downloads and torrents were broken.
i knew most of the scenes the songs were referring to. i was thinking about all these added melancholic contexts and morose what-ifs applied to the original episodes and movies. if pinkie offed herself even though she was able to pass the "watching paint dry" test, because watching herself from the outside made her see how annoying and horrible she could be. the rest of the mane 6 who loved her would be left with a brainless clone of her. the meanings of the songs also apply to lonely bronies and people in general, so i also thought about masses of people going through similar situations throughout my album listening.
the scenario other twilight imagines is so compelling to me. while pony twilight is hanging out with humans and becoming bffs with human versions of her friends, the friendless other twilight dreams about having finally having friends that are best friends but they are ponies, between working on her research. other twilight is so attached to the singular wholesome adventure, the one thing that she finds fulfillment in, that she hikkis up even more, trying to get back to that sweet dream even once. she does this for months presumably, going back to sleep whenever she wakes, giving up on every other activity. she never returns.
i love devi's voice and her fun diy electropop production in this era. i was listening to the album on loop and eventually a lot of different lyrics in different songs hit.
it was october 2020, i was checking out to pimp a butterfly since my online texas friends were into kendrick, and i hosted a spotify listen along for them while listening on web spotify. on my end, i was zoning out listening to the album, on their end their ears were dying due to the listen along stuttering, looping from 0:00 to 0:05 for entirety of songs, and other problems that led to them complaining the whole way through until i deafened them. i listened to it again, and there were a few songs i liked including u. love the concept, lyricism, and chill but tense instrumentals. many parts are relatable, i have this in the same feeling bad playlist as rei clone. yesterday i was thinking about how no one will ever love me and this came on in my regular playlist in that exact minute. so that was a striking impression when i'd been tuning out every previous song, trying to read scribblehub stories.
it was either an imageboard or the record label server that made me listen to hissing fauna, are you the destroyer? april of last year. but before that, i was well acquainted with wraith pinned to the mist, which i mostly listened to when i was 10 or so. i loved penguins back then and the mv + the antarctica line just hit so hard. that love started with a magic tree house book i read in 2nd grade. in 2020, i checked out liz lehman of the scary jokes's playlist linked on their artist page and heard enemy gene, which is really nice. when i saw hissing fauna, i decided to listen to it sometime, and went through with that sooner than i usually do for albums. i hated the first half. but this song was where it picked up. its lyrics are so fun while serious, and its instrumentals fit well. its con sordino wailing and drama. didn't like the oohs first few times i heard the past is a grotesque animal but they're fine now.
at that time, i began playing multiplayer jigsaw puzzles and just listened to hissing fauna on loop, making out some anime girl or other. slowly began to enjoy some of the first few songs and last few songs, especially we were born the mutants again with leafling. people say that satanic panic is better than hissing fauna but i haven't enjoyed any of of montreal's other albums in full, just songs here and there. not even cherry peel. but the lyricism is usually top-notch. some say it's too pretentious, but it's gorgeous.
Like, like 50% of the time I…
50% of the things that I think that, er…
The things that I'm going to say
I think that you talk better, and so, I
I say something else or I just don't say anything
So, and then I never say anything to anyone, now
No one thinks I ever talk
And now they're all going to think I'm a fucking creep because of how weird my fucking voice sounds!
the first time i listened to 1, which was a month ago, this stood out because of how jarring and annoying the guitar was. hated the song just for that reason, first few minutes in. then the lyrics i could hear had a good melody and were relatable as fuck, especially this verse. everyone irl says im anti-social and i do exactly what will describes. i hate my dumb pre-t voice outside of its ability to roleplay a certain dream pop sound. my voice will always have its dumb open quotient and inability to go below 120hz until i somehow figure out how to voice train better and people always doompost about their years-long failed voice training attempts.
after finishing 1, i decided to hear kid war a few more times and the guitar grew on me.
car seat headrest's lyricism has always been good, neuroses on full display. it was slightly disappointing that car seat headrest live was normal. most of everyone seemed like well-adjusted people. only the super popular songs got played, only from teens of denial, twin fantasy, making a door less open, and living while starving. the hi-fi mixing, professional lightshow, huge venue. the only quirky things were will's dancing, ever charmingly awkward; one conversation i overheard starting off with "riddle me this batman"; and people in fursuits, which i didn't even see personally, or animal ears, but that's still closer to normal than weird, or paws/tail, which is respectable.
apr 26, 2022
it was january 2021. someone i followed on twitter shared a collaborative album they were on. i heard the first song and it was really good. FRSKN - LOVE STORY 2000000000 (FRSKN TO THE MAX MIX). breaks, annoying but soon endearing barking, glissando-like twinkles, and hard laser kicks. sped up vocals. i tolerate the end.
the next few songs were underwhelming, but the album was pay what you want no minimum so i downloaded the whole thing anyways. when i got winamp for milkdrop love story was my goto. some months later i wondered if frskn was on spotify and they were. c0untry g1rl5 goes so hard. every country song needs to be sped up +breaks +broken chopped up remixed and crushed. their remix of mitchie m - burenai de ai, which i originally loved, is also very atmospheric and banging.
i also love the name frskn. officially, it's supposed to be a shortening of forsaken but lol. i didn't even know it was supposed to be forsaken for a long while. i don't like their new album, sloppy seconds because all the beats either don't fit or the melodies and progressions are off.
one day in 2016 i was checking out the itunes store on my old ipad mini for music, and came upon aurora - all my demons greeting me as a friend, glass animals - how to be a human being, and caveman - otero war. aurora and caveman ruled, but glass animals felt too clashy. i got into the former two, and i checked the music videos for the songs i liked. in the comments of never going back, people were saying caveman was ripping off the war on drugs - red eyes. so i listened to it, enjoyed it, and mentally disavowed caveman. but if the same thing happened today i'd probably listen to both artists. the problem is never going back isn't enjoyable for me anymore. red eyes and never going back were similar, but never going back reverted to an annoying generic melody for the chorus.
after hearing red eyes, i soon listened to lost in the dream, slave ambient, and wagonwheel blues. slave ambient was the weakest of them. some of the wagonwheel blues songs i mostly liked had uninteresting melodies that put me off, but not buenos aires beach. good lyrical and instrumental texture.
in 2021, an osu player tweeted out a spreadsheet ranking artists other people requested them to rank, and nightwish was in s tier, with a comment of how imaginaerum was one of their better albums. so naturally i listened to it. i looped the album a few times but only ended up liking storytime. its lyrics are kinda generic and flat but i really enjoy the song's composition.
i already talked about this song in my something soon entry, but this stanza:
The ancients saw it coming
You can see that they tried to warn them
In the tales that they told their children
But they fell out of their heads in the morning
They said sex can be frightening
But the children were not listening
And the children cut out everything
Except for the kissing and the singing
always reminds me of doris lessing's short story, report on a threatened city (1971). in it, aliens try to make san franciscans care about a terrible earthquake that would come in 50 years. they try again and again to warn them, through transmitting thoughts to people, posing as researchers, debating on live tv, etc. and every time they try the transmission with young adults, all that happened were that people did drugs and sang songs about the future tragedy without comprehending the information, with acoustic accompaniment. at the beach. and then they committed mass suicide. all the warnings failed for every other demographic too, despite the people's knowledge of 1906. it's a good story. genius annotators say the stanza is alluding to the bible.
it's not that it can be reduced to "international makes me cry", it's just that that sentence is such a true glimpse into this song. so soft. so sweet. when i heard everywhere at the end of time for the first time, i compared the last stages to an inferior version of this song. sustained synth tones with vinyl dust. beautiful textures everywhere. brain hears good glitch noise and attaches to it. seemingly roby's voice, or a crushed pleasant low tone. i love roby's voice. but especially since sweet trip ended, this really has the potential to make someone cry, not just because of its tenderness, but this exemplifies the sweet trip sound. this is what will they'll never make again. might never hear someone do again.
it was mid-late 2020 or so, i was watching a zen huxtable stream. found him when he dropped that one now-deleted video flaming sarah z. stayed for the deconstruction of houseki no kuni's opening, other music theory vids, and animations. he was working on some art in krita, playing various jazz songs and albums. he played the original my favorite things, which i already enjoyed, and someone in the chat talked about how dave brubeck and outkast's versions were superior to john coltrane's. as a fan of lemon demon's one remix, super hey ya, i opted to search up outkast's version first.
immediately, the beefy kicks caught my attention and got me hooked. then the whole beats were very energetic. i saw someone describe breakcore as having the perfect drum/chopped up breaks loop already, then trying to make everything else as good. a perfect speedy drum loop, first thing you have. but here, you have a great melody and chords already, then outcast decided craft a cool speedy beat to go atop it. perfect formula.
then i tried the dave brubeck version. thought he was gonna have good music, the decathlon music guide discussed his jazz ambassador era in depth and one of the selections was by him and iola. but his version of my favorite things wasn't impressive at all, especially not compared to outkast. worse than john coltrane's even. but the chatter was right for outkast's and i respect that.
it was probably 2019 or 2020, apraxia was in his australia phase, and he was streaming osu. he was probably trying to beat jordan the bear's score on this map's highest difficulty in double time? using the bowsette osu skin for some reason. the bowsette skin has many fun hitsounds that nicely embellished this song as he kept retrying and it stuck in my memory. laser beams and clappy kicks atop stressed beats. but it's pretty good without the noises. although i've heard this probably 40 times over the past few years, i don't even know what anime this is from.
=> gemini://dimension.sh/~novaburst/5237b73e.gmi
in academic decathlon 2020-21, when the theme was the cold war, this was used in one of the art selections. the 1973 video global groove by nam june paik and john godfrey.
=> https://www.yewtu.be/watch?v=7UXwhIQsYXY
this video was especially memorable because paik built a video synthesizer for earlier projects and i fixated on that fact. he probably just used the equipment at thirteen/wnet's tv lab to make this particular video but the visuals are so cool and physically-controlled. the thought of making something that can do the same on my own, like paik? so tempting. something else i remember is marshall mcluhan, whose idea of global village influenced this video. i honestly thought historians and theorists mentioned in these guides had 0 relevance to the world. but then i read the 1995 article "the californian ideology".
=> https://www.metamute.org/editorial/articles/californian-ideology
On superficial reading, the writings of the Californian ideologists are an amusing cocktail of Bay Area cultural wackiness and in-depth analysis of the latest developments in the hi-tech arts, entertainment and media industries. Their politics appear to be impeccably libertarian - they want information technologies to be used to create a new `Jeffersonian democracy' in cyberspace in its certainties, the Californian ideology offers a fatalistic vision of the natural and inevitable triumph of the hi-tech free market.
and my brain formed a little connection from this to marshall mcluhan to this decathlon art selection.
this song is very fun and catchy. i can't tell if other songs with similar titles, like kanye's devil in a new dress, got inspired by this title.
mar 28, 2022
biting my clothes to keep from screaming
taking pills to keep from dreaming
i want to break something important
i want to kick my dad in the shins
i was referring to the present in past tense
it was the only way that I could survive it
i want to close my head in the car door
i want to sing this song like i'm dying
heavy boots on my throat, i need
i need something soon
i need something soon
i can't talk to my folks, i need
i need something soon
i need something soon
all of my fingers are froze, i need
i need something soon
i need something soon
in 2017 or so, i saw someone mention drunk drivers/killer whales and i watched the mv on youtube, but it kinda sucked. fill in the blank was better but still felt off. that was all i touched on this seemingly random indie band. fast forward some years and everyone and their mother is calling twin fantasy the gay furry album, i heard a bit of it and it was mid. in april 2021, 1 trait danger got onto my discover weekly and i heard it but it wasn't anywhere close to good. i also posted an instagram story with music suggestions that matched the energy of a passionate, rocking-out apu. the friend i'm seeing csh with suggested beach life-in-death, another suggested silversun pickups - lazy eye which i tried first. i heard the whole of beach life-in-death 4 times in a row and there were some good parts but it wasn't that attention-grabbing, i kept forgetting what happened in it.
in june i heard how to leave town and twin fantasy in full, but all of how to leave town was bland. bodys stood out. very much driving music, had it on repeat. sometime later i heard twin fantasy again. beach life-in-death and cute things turned into earworms. late 2021, i could belt out all of beach life-in-death perfectly. hold all the drawn-out lyrics. i voice trained to that shit too, walking home. 49 plays. more twin fantasy appeared in my playlist.
..a few months ago i wasn't too impressed by this song, something soon, watching 2011 will toledo awkwardly dance to this song in a dorm room
=> https://yewtu.be/watch?v=o1qqLTTfv1g
but i heard my back is killing me baby a few hours ago, going through the discography with an online friend so i could more wisely choose a song to request for my tour date, and damn this song kinda went hard. and same, 2011 will. i know the feel.
in april 2021, i saw someone did a last.fm command for ska dream. i thought, why not try it, i liked a ska song from that horace platformer and love a lot of songs by streetlight manifesto. so i heard most of the album and couldn't tell if i liked it but there were a few songs that were definitively bad. in june 2021, twinkle was in one of my discover weeklys and i got addicted to it, with its moodiness, bright instrumentation, and godly chiptune breakdown. i tried the thanks, sorry version and it sucked at the time. this was the only jeff song i heard for a while in that time period, but then i tried his most popular songs, enjoyed nausea and 9/10, then just heard no dream and explored his main albums, loved a ton of tracks. soon, i tried btmi and asob. his lyrics are all so relatable and great, comedically. in late 2021, i took countless walks in the evening, since i was actively playing pikmin bloom and just spent that time mostly playing good jeff rosenstock songs and voice training to them. walking and trying to mimick his volume, closed quotient, pitch, and some embouchre. but it's hard to maintain his high pitch with a closed quotient, so i mainly did volume and lowered my pitch. i guess the pitch training worked because i can sing along to various male vocalists including jeff and my voice is lower than theirs, which is very satisfying to hear.
i almost have 1,400 jeff rosenstock plays despite my variety in musicians, and it hasn't even been a year since i got last.fm. i love jeff rosenstock's music so much. i really wanted to go to his ska dream tour but neither of the people i go to shows with would probably like him*, and my mom wouldn't let me go to shows solo. gahh
*hate how a lot of people at my school have really limited music taste. yesterday i tried showing the friend i'm out to anamanaguchi's you belong with helix nebula (from nether meant) because some loudspeaker finished playing you belong with me, which she loves, and she was not impressed. you enjoy the lil mariko i sent you and more, lemon demon, ghost data, and other youtube-core why can't you handle 170 bpm remixes with awesome oscillating chiptune melodies and drum breaks.
i enjoy demetori, the touhou metal arranger brothers. maps of their songs were pretty popular in osu tourneys, and i really like this style of metal. someone called this song djent on a tourney stream in 2018 when this map was chosen, but all the djent i've heard is a drastically different style i don't like. in general, demetori maps had managable difficulties and i played them a lot. i liked how long they were in comparison to most maps, because they taught endurance and consistency instead of the popular osu maps at the time, farm maps, which were usually 30 seconds - 2 minutes. there's very little metal i've found like demetori, so i usually don't listen to the genre. my enjoyment of animals as leaders is tenuous, and the other metal bands i have songs from aren't consistently good. demetori has so much good tracks (madpiero, emotional skyscraper, eastern dream, death echo, etc...). i might've enjoyed them more if i played touhou, but they're awesome regardless. in 2017 or so, i downloaded some touhou game and it had fucked up text encoding and changed my monitor size so i didn't try more. maybe there's better versions of them online.
in the last half of 2019, the osu player smh posted a meme about you will never know why. i liked the simplistic album cover and took a dive. it was beautiful. conservation of two is a strong opener. air supply's tenseness is irresistable. the synthy bridges and breathy lyrics of forever... you get the point. originally, i thought velocity: design: comfort. was a huge downgrade. it was just random and ill-fitting glitchy noises, not even the good ones! but i revisited it in 2020 and also fell in love. every song is a masterpiece. "international makes me cry." so, from my discovery of sweet trip to early 2020, i listened to ywnky every single day at school. it was my go-to.
darkness. i hadn't noticed how full and bittersweet the bass line was until recently. it's hypnotizing. the oscillating opening melodies always caught my attention. i love valerie's voice. its first lyric is my site description. i have heard it at least 100 times. i never tune it out. it's attached to quite a few memories with online friends.
but of course, valerie announced her leave from sweet trip a month ago. and yesterday, they officially announced their disbandment. goodbye, sweet trip. i will miss you forever.
march 16, 2022
my first intro to this album was kaifin's map of see you at your funeral in 2019. i was already inclined to like it after playing and seeing the maps of dvp and mabu again and again. i checked out the album pretty quickly. in the beginning, i kinda despised the intro, but i moved past that, because i love the rest of the song musically. this song has a really moving story. on my first listens it really just cut deep. anyways, this is perfect when i'm depressed and angry. i even have a playlist purely full of similar pup songs for this purpose.
cute ass song. it's been with me since 2017 or so, from osu. it featured in some tourneys, and there were many, many maps of it that had difficulties i could play. the kinda robotic male vocals are a classic - something similar is in halozy - heart of night, which i also love. i forgot to add it to my spotify playlist until i saw it in a algorithm-generated vocaloid mix, so i haven't heard it in recent memory. but it has been in my youtube and soundcloud for ages. i remember miku sounding much more sharp and whiny than it does in this spotify version. i also didn't know the original artist's name before now.
in july 2019, i made an edit of miku over the crab nebula, oversaturated with low resolution japanese phrases and a ton of other things in it, while listening to this song. so text like "Monster Player Kill" is in here too. i think it was really fun to make.
i've had a good track record of artists with kino in their name, mainly kinokoteikoku. they really are kino. i discovered this artist very recently, after seeing someone on tumblr mention how a video essay by the youtuber hazel helped them realize how bizarre elfen lied was. i checked her out and recognized the profile pic. it had been floating around online, but i never really looked into it, nor knew who hazel was.
i watched the video essay and was really impressed by some of the music, although it would often overpower her voice. it was a long process to find the song list of the video, but i managed to find it and a few days ago, i went through some of its songs. but for kinoue, i didn't check out that specific song. instead, i went through their whole discography. this is a very cute song with pretty compelling shoegaze instrumentals.
also, i had no idea twinkle park was a video essayist. i discovered her years earlier through typing in vib ribbon for music for my instagram story, and her cover of overflowing emotion was really good. twinkle park really rocks!
one of my first introductions to good shoegaze. in mid-late 2019, i kept seeing the term "shoegaze" being thrown around on twitter and was curious as to what it was. i searched it up on youtube and played the first human-made mix i saw, but wasn't really impressed by any of the songs. i probably heard some mbv in this era, but didn't add any mbv songs to anything so i probably didn't enjoy that either. but one day in 2019 or early 2020, scrolling through my timeline, the same former warrior cats animator who would later play the scary jokes rt'd a gif of cool, sci-fi fight scene wip animation by a different artist i don't remember.
in the thread, the artist linked their actual video on youtube and this rei clone song. i saved the thread in order to watch it later, but i never did. but i did listen to ready to die some time after and i loved its atmosphere, somberness, its dramatic whining melody, soft vocals, etc. a lot of standard shoegaze. i can't find the tweet anymore. and i can't find the youtube video either. so i can never see the origins of my discovery again with my own eyes. it will only stay in my fading memory.
i remember looping the ep this is before a dentist appointment and i felt pretty haunted by it. have a playlist for when i'm feeling bad, separate from the purely pup one but containing pup songs, and this is in there. beautiful song. i have not watched evangelion and didn't know what rei clone referred to for a long while.
it was freshman year. the people i hung out with in middle school had all gone to different high schools. i didn't relate to the other freshmen and preferred spending my time solving 500-1000 piece jigsaw puzzles with the smart seniors of the time, in a classroom at lunch. they chatted and occasionally played music. one time, someone played this song, and i really liked it so i asked what it was. then they told me and talked about how the anime it came from was mid.
freshman year. my acadeca team was driving back from our cabin retreat, in two suvs. in the suv i was in, a senior had the aux. he played this, n.e.r.d - don't don't do it which is also good, and later that one fucked up immortal technique song lol. but this song was cool because i was kinda into modern prog rock at the time, and i really liked riffs. i asked him what it was and added it to my playlist. i think i removed it for a bit because i didn't like its vocals but added it back.
in 5th or 6th grade, there was this ytp channel called stets uninu focused on steven universe. at the time, i enjoyed watching su and gravity falls through dailymotion, reaction videos, and ad-ridden sites (didn't use any adblock at the time) and the ytps of them. but one of stets uninu's videos was an edited amv of cry for judas, focusing on pearl as a character. i was amazed at how it seemed perfectly lipsynced yet had only thematically-fitting clips, and loved the song.
=> https://stetsuninu.tumblr.com/post/188527530368/steven-universe-amv-cry-for-judas-so-this-was
after some time i listened to the whole of transcendental youth and loved the calmness of the title track combined with its striking lyrics. i have a sketch somewhere in my ap bio notes where an oc with wings soars, surrounded by flies. i also read ted chiang's exhalation: stories and re-read his stories of your life and others around that time. both are great sci-fi/speculative fiction short story collections. some of my favorite stories in there for sure. for some reason i heard transcendental youth while reading one of the stories, and thought it fit perfectly. especially with tower of babylon, hell is the absence of god, the merchant and the alchemist's gate, and exhalation. so then i just looped that while reading the rest of the books. i should reread them again.
i think my enjoyment of cry for judas hindered me from enjoying the mountain goats's most popular music. instead, i stuck to transcendental youth, only branching out into liking chavo guerrero so far even though i heard some full albums.
one of the top, but underappreciated, osu players kablaze was just browsing youtube and the web in general in one of her first week-long (or month-long?) streams in 2020 and played chouchou - lunaria. in the chat, people sent youtube links and one person suggested the live performance of long season. it was beautiful. the person in chat went on about how the frontman for fishmans died just 3 months after this performance and that was their last show. so in addition to the already heart-wrenching melodies, this morbid element was incorporated into my interpretation of this song. this was about the same time i read the song of achilles, so i just looped this song as i read, and it was really fitting, especially with that ending.
i was browsing twitter and someone promoted pk_kenzie's new catabolic seed amv in 2020. i watched it and thought the song was really good except for the vocal mixing, but all the comments were praising the animation and said nothing about the music or the scary jokes, so i didn't look up the song to add it to a playlist. a few days later, i caught a former warrior cats animator's art stream and they played a ton of music. one of the songs was catabolic seed, and another was icicles iirc. i asked what it was and they said the scary jokes. evidence that people actually liked them. i quickly devoured burn pygmalion and thought of some animation ideas, but only drew sketches of it. last year, the new remaster of april fools dropped but i only enjoyed some of the new versions.
in 2020, i got recommended a warrior cats pmv of this song, watched it and this is so good. first sidney gish song i really liked after this one was her cover of our house, which started a light interest in guitar pedals. i had never heard the original our house.
=> https://yewtu.be/watch?v=gNm-QOgZprE
after getting into the rest of her music, i thought of making a pmv of 2 magician girls, one novice and one master who are in the same age range, but the master is famous and the all the lyrics demonstrate the novice's infatuation with the other girl. unrequited though. i never realized it, only made storyboards, but it was a realistic goal. i had made a pmv for american football - never meant before.
chill song. i found it when i was browsing for games from the 2 big itch.io bundles to play, and thought pikuniku looked cool. i like bowen's vgm way more than his stuff as bo en.
this is a masterpiece. i found it after i got 800 cherries in my discover weekly last year and chased more of that pico pop sound, looking through related artists of related artists. it's like dv-i but legitimately from 2004 and the same vocalist across songs. and more hyper and sweet. i listened the whole album after i heard this and it's cool that plus-tech squeeze box's remix of socopogogo is on here, but i saw one reviewer say it blew every other song out of the water - nope wrong. a lot of people say the vocals are weak but i think they fit well. they praise strawberry machine for the vocals but i can't enjoy strawberry machine because of their vocals.
this is one of many songs i've heard called endroll, and all of them were japanese. i found fermenting dreg's self-titled through youtube's recommendation algorithm during its peak, but i had heard of fermenting dregs before. some player i followed had gone to a paranoid void concert and they also performed. this whole album is amazing. this song is amazing. i remember running to it a lot, in combination with paranoid void songs. they both have similar riffs, sounds, and vocals. i would be ascending and descending hills while these played, somewhere along those 6 to 10 miles.
wanted to get into steve lacy since an irl friend loved him, shuffle played him for a few hours. this showed up. pleasant song. ravyn lenae uses really nice samples.
this is almost the song that got me into anamanaguchi, which was prom night from the same record. fuck the miku song, prom night at 1.5x speed is where it's at. predictably found in some osu tournament as a doubletime pick. some years later, i was lurking in some weird philosophy twitter circle branching off from some popular osu players on twitter. they kept talking about nick land, accelerationism, mishima... from that circle, i mainly followed limeboiler aka drainpuppet aka blackwinterwells and some other aliases i forgot. she rted an announcement for the nether meant festival, where i was already excited for american football. i watched the livestream and revisited anamanaguchi and heard their cool, industrial mashups and bubblegum remixes, as well as stuff from [usa]. [usa] has such bright, cute songs. then i tried some of endless fantasy. the title track isn't too energetic, but it has a pleasant balance of tension and release. and i love some chill chiptune.
this is a kinda hype song as far as vgm goes, one to hear while speeding down empty streets. it's from a fun and pretty game i saw recommended on twitter, awesome ost (this game is meant to be an album in game form). all the characters are lesbians if you think about it. almost all the songs are bangers. i spent so much time getting gold rank on all the levels because i could listen to them, combined with the sleek outrun visuals. even though this album takes inspiration from charli xcx and carly rae jepsen, it kinda outclasses them lol.
so happy. i love sasakure.uk. i got into them from spider thread monopoly, seventh heaven, and good bye, mr. jack, which were all maps on osu that had difficulties for my skill level. also, kamui, a song under their alias tj.hangneil. then i found a 39 map and loved the song. i listened to more sasakure and deco*27 thanks to loving this song.
as a child, i came across multi-animator projects, mostly about the children's fiction series called warriors, or warrior cats. when i first found them, i think i had already read 2 books from the 2nd series that i borrowed from a library. but this really piqued my interest, with all the interesting storylines of the chosen three being animated by talented teens over and over again, all to different songs. i was enraptured by how beautiful many of the animations and their backgrounds were, and that was the main draw of this community, but good music was a plus. i drew weird cat-wolf things and looped the good songs. this is how i got into crying. i only read the 4th series and some character novels in the time i really watched warrior cats animations. in 9th grade, i had to do book tests, and chose to read the simple warrior cats novels, getting into the 3rd and 5th series from some now-deleted mega link. in this time, i checked out some animations that had been made in the time i didn't check on this community and there were quite a few good ones, let go being one of them.
i used to be an avid anime watcher, but avid in the good ones. i remember being impressed that some of my first anime were shin sekai yori, which i probably chose because of its worldbuilding, and girls last tour, which was cute and also had an interesting setting. impressed because i chose some high-quality stuff as a 12 year old. so i continued watching anime, and one day during some new anime season, i was interested in megalo box's style and began watching it. it was pretty decent and i really enjoyed this ending song.
a 2012 demo of this song has been my ringtone for about 5 years now. for a while this was my favorite song of all time. the soulful instrumentation and the passionate lyrics full of fascinating concepts were top tier. i thought lemon demon was the peak of music and although i mainly used soundcloud, my main spotify playlist had 50 lemon demon songs out of 61 songs... thankfully i branched out and began to think zutomayo was the peak of music, but touch-tone telephone and other lemon demon songs are still up there in my favorite songs. like ode to crayola! i once made a puzzle based off of it.
exurb1a was popular in 2015, and he had his subscriptions public, so i like browsing them. he always had small channels, sometimes with less than 500 subscribers. one time, i scrolled far enough that bill wurtz appeared in them. interested by the umbrella, so i began to watch him - coincidentally he dropped a new video only a few days before i found him, history of japan. in one of his videos' comment sections, someone asked "do you know who neil cicierega is?" and bill replied, "no, but he sounds cool" - something like that.
i searched up neil and i found potter puppet pals, which i remembered watching before, and while i didn't entirely recognize the ultimate showdown animation, i recalled the melody. he had a spirit phone trailer up but not the full album, and i didn't try to find it. i was satisfied just with his upload of i am become christmas. but then i got spotify in july 2016 and i listened to spirit phone. touch-tone telephone was added to a playlist of 10 songs and then only listened to lemon demon on shuffle play. no other artists, since the synth hooks and the fantastical and quirky storytelling. it was crazy. the spirit phone and view-monster tracks would intermix - but even in all those hours, i never heard any of the missing transition tracks originally in view-monster, until last year. i also never heard view-monster chronologically with bonus tracks. still haven't lol. from 2016-2017, it was a lonely time to like lemon demon, in the spaces i talked in. it was after the era of the lemon demon forums, but before the rise of aimkid where lemon demon exploded. i lurked on youtube - all the comment sections were dead - and reddit - people would mention bustin or ultimate showdown every now and then. i don't recall any lemon demon discords yet. on the forum i talked in, no one knew him. mouth moods came out and i gained a lot of american culture that i hadn't known previously. who knew all those songs were really popular? i didn't. i did manage to introduce some 13 year old christian unity game dev to mouth silence and they loved it. at school, i talked about him a lot but couldn't really sway anyone into listening to him.
i showed t.i.m.e. and another song to this one girl and she thought it was cool, but never really got into him. we hung out a lot at lunch with some other friends, drawing stuff on blackboards together. went to different high schools, we texted for a while, but then i asked her to come to her own school's art gallery exhibition which she submitted a painting to, she said ~"yeah i can go", then she stopped texting me altogether. (i went to the gallery on my own.) i kept trying to start conversations every few months for the next few years (sorry, it was a combo of down bad and missing her, and she kept being so cool). she never replied. in 2021, she posted about how awesome lemon demon and touch-tone telephone was, getting into him on her own with the rise of minecraft smps... never replied... and a host of other shared artists like origami angel, lamp, candy claws... she posted about heavypaint and mapcrunch... i just miss the friendship that could've been.
ok, that was an unneeded tangent. anyways, a year after constantly listening to view-monster and spirit phone at home, for some reason i wanted to hear dinosaurchestra and purely listened to it on bandcamp and youtube on neil's 2nd channel. i was shocked that one of his vids was just disparaging reddit - it was a good place to get info! man, neil's opinions suck! but then some years later, i realized he was right. but dinosaurchestra was chill, fine being my favorite from it. i maybe have 1000 plays in total, including before i started scrobbling, for it. but the dinosaurchestra parts are still nice, except for part two - too short.
9th grade. that decathlon crush recommended mitski, when i asked them about music. they didn't tell me how to spell it but i figured it out. they said her music was dark, and sure, but it's a bit more light-hearted than the word "dark" suggests. i was weirded out by nobody's music video. that year, i took the train for the first time in order to go to a senior science presentation event, and had to walk for a while after taking the train to get to the place it was happening. on the way, i listened to a lot of mitski on my lonesome walk and i just remember passing by construction and mitski's melancholy sound. nobody was my first mitski song, but her stuff is generally solid. the only people talking about her were on tumblr, but that didn't last long.
people kept saying they were good. i had heard some of k.g. and l.w. before this, while i was cooking but those weren't to my taste. but butterfly 3000 rules. i looped the album for a few hours before i decided what songs were good. this was one of them. when i don't shuffle my playlist, this song comes immediately after a long streak of jeff rosenstock, which kinda breaks the epic, brash emo mood his songs put me in. it switches from jeff - nausea to this. early on in my jeff listening, but after i got into twinkle, i just kept pressing the back button when interior people played. sorry, but jeff rules more.
ironically, despite me only liking b3k (but possibly some of gumboot soup and paper mache dream balloon if i looped them for a week. maybe not.), king gizz is one of my most scrobbled artists by a huge factor, since i went through their discography with a friend.
i loved when osu players played o'er the flood in solo and tourney play. such a good song, i don't think there was a lower difficulty i could personally play at the time. that got me into goreshit, i got into a few albums, then some years passed and i wanted to explore more albums - including goretrance 9 in 2021. bad habits from this album is also really catchy. one time in 2020, my online texas friends thought death grips was weird as fuck and i told them nah, you guys are vanilla as hell and sent them goreshit and passenger of shit. they called me unhinged, but those artists really are at the tip of the iceberg. these texans were just too sheltered, with their weeknd, rush, and pink floyd. but look at them now, with death grips in their hearts and goreshit in their playlists.
i was into persona 5 and it was a cool song. i didn't think of it much until i watched one of adam neely's videos where he mentioned j-music ensemble, leading me to watch a show recording and i really loved their arrangement of this song with the groovy and poignant rapped lyrics. futaba's relationship to her mother and all the baggage that came with it. which brought me back to this original, which is less poignant but still nice.
i found knower through osu, when mismagius mapped overtime. i kept thinking of overtime by cash cash, which was also mapped on osu, seeing the title early on. i got into knower's groovy live band sessions that they posted on youtube and enjoyed their simple text edits in those videos. then anamanaguchi rted that knower and them were going to be in 2020's secret sky, i was excited. in that secret sky, some cool audiovisual company worked on the live auditorium with the cool 3d mesh visuals. i kinda wanted to work for that company in the future, but i forgot its name. anyways, the thing about knower's secret sky set was that they had visuals for both the livestream and the auditorium and both were sick as hell with all the animals. they performed a lot of songs in their pre-recorded live set and i found a lot of good knower songs, including window shop, and reconsidered my stance on them only being good without effects.
but i didn't add window shop to my playlist until i saw knower live early this year - my 3rd show ever, excluding a lame one from a 2017? or 18 convention by horie yui (it was pretty short and simple, not much hype, i thought that it was going to be more in the vein of horie yui - the world's end, a cute song. but it was some mid songs from the character horie voiced, miss monochrome). knower performed epic songs, with window shop as one of the last ones. i vaguely remembered window shop's tune but not the lyrics or the song name, but it was really a bop live. at the end louis cole talked about how they spent 12,000 hours on knower, including visuals, live shows, albums, etc. that was cool to think about, a monument to all their work.
mar 9, 2022
seriously though, if you want my puzzle i can send it through email, then if you get the right answer without hints i'll make you a 4 minute sketch. but each hint you ask for halves the sketch time.
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