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Hey bartender, a water please. Cold.

=> ~orchard

I need something better.

I want to be the guy that made it by doing what he loves. IT is burning me out. I don’t want to stare at a computer all day long. But nothing else pays so well right now. And with my family it is hard to ‘jump into’ something else.

I want to get rid of so many habits. They keep crawling back to me. Is the ‘perfect life’ just a perfect lie? I don’t know, yet.

I hope i find some peace.

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=> ~translucyd wrote (thread):

My response to this, ironically, was books.

I bought a lot of physical books to read when I get a new job. Life inside the screen is too much for our eyes and mind and we ignore it in the name of profit and capitalism.

If you can, I suggest buy some books, or even an ebook reader if that's not too much money for you, and try to disconnect as frequently as possible.

To be honest, I didn't see results of this yet, but its my bet to stay sane.

Also, maybe some therapy could help you out with this feelings?

=> ~jr wrote (thread):

i'm still in college and i'm already struggling with this - in fact i have been for years. i don't want to just become a staff software engineer for the rest of my life, building out some platform for a massive company who is ruining all of us and everything around us. i want to do something good (or at least in utilitarian terms, something neutral) and be at peace. i feel an immense pressure constantly to continue down this path but also an equal and opposite reaction to it, the realization that this isn't what i want to do with the rest of my life. i don't feel like i'm in the right place, but i don't have any way to get there.

above all, i'm with you.

=> ~inquiry wrote (thread):

Peace is proportional to the inverse of the amount of thoughts pertaining to self.

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