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Written by Everyday.Human Derek on 2024-09-18 at 19:38

So disappointed.. #Audhd is such a fcking curse sometimes finally found something I can maybe do at least apply

I missed I try and I missed the deadline.. fck..what’s bad is I did remember and I asked and was told nothing is coming up back in may june.

Still not other people’s responsibility to know positions etc.. fccck I’m so disappointed 😢

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Written by olena on 2024-09-18 at 20:23

@EVDHmn I don’t know what to say, but I want to support you.

I think, I understand how you feel now: been there, felt that.

At some point I embraced some type of fatalism on that regard. I tell myself that if I missed it, it’s because I had to, because secretly there surely was something that would go bad if I succeeded in that effort.

I can’t say it totally frees me from disappointment and hating myself for that loss, as well as I can’t say that analytic part of my brain actually believes it, but it’s still a bit soothing to tell myself that it’s actually secretly a good luck and maybe I dodged a bullet I didn’t see coming

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Written by Everyday.Human Derek on 2024-09-18 at 20:47

@olena I keep trying to write you back. Thank you so much for your kindness.

I’m just super pissed and disappointed it wasn’t anything for sure it was a misinfo disinfo fellowship

I’ve done the work since a kid so maybe I would have had a shot.

Unfortunately I know quite a few people at said institution so I don’t know how much of a bullet I dodged because I like. UW CIP.

Oh and the course for the fellowship was on my birthday. 😆

Thank you for your kindness again I do appreciate it!

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