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Written by not sam on 2024-12-11 at 15:35

@actuallyautistic btw they are super cheap RCA "isolate beat" headphones and I do not recommend them as such. The noise cancelling is janky and I don't use it. They aren't very adjustable. I bought them by accident.

BUT they happen to fit my head really really well and as such are more comfortable and noise-isolating than any of the mid-range headphones I've tried which by any other measure are better.

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Written by not sam on 2024-12-11 at 15:21

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[#]actuallyautistic #headphone appreciation post!

headphones help me function in ways that i had not previously understood or expected. i'm making an effort to wear them all day with a steady stream of repetitive super-chill chill lofi and synthwave.

the remarkable thing is that i'm better off when i do this even during my quiet at home alone time, which i wouldn't normally have thought made a difference. obviously i don't even try to go into the grocery store without them lol.

[#]alexithemia and four decades of unconscious high masking have left me largely unable to tell in real time what is helping or hurting me, so this took me quite a while to figure out, and i'm still second guessing myself.

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Written by not sam on 2024-12-07 at 15:52

[#]actuallyautistic @actuallyautistic wondering if any out there can relate: I just took my dog for a walk, and I feel like I need to rest and recover from the experience. Part of it is physical -- I'm not in great shape and I always need a breather after even low-to-moderate exertion -- but mostly it's sensory: the bright sun, the sound of traffic, the sound of my boots crunching through the icecrusted snow, the dog pulling, the dog poop, the sensory experience of walking itself(??) and of course the whole ordeal of being perceived even if no other pedestrians are out and it's just a few cars.

It's not that the experience is terrible it's just that I get the idea that most people -- even many other autists -- really enjoy taking walks and find them variously relaxing and/or invigorating, and overall pleasant.

I feel like I'm doing it wrong 😅

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Written by not sam on 2024-11-28 at 12:51

Sitting/lying in a lump next to my bed, imagining a version of myself that is ready and eager to take on the day. There are of course endless things to do, a few I would probably enjoy doing and plenty that would provide some relief if done...

Eventually I'll work up the energy to get moving and do a few of them, the most urgent or otherwise somehow salient, nearly random. Eventually I'll return to bed with no sense of accomplishment.

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Written by not sam on 2024-11-24 at 12:43

Just had an #anxiety overwhelm moment while looking at my to-do list, so I put it down and found myself looking around my room. I had to stop myself from doing that and just close my eyes and curl up instead, because every object in my room is automatically linked to multiple thoughts and associations, many of which are Things I Should Do.

I found myself thinking of a past therapist who often encouraged me to do a ’name five things you can see' activity to deal with anxiety, and how unhelpful I found it.

A strong pattern with my #autism is getting caught up with and overwhelmed by my own thoughts, which can certainly run wild on their own but are also easily triggered by things I perceive around me, and I wonder if anyone else #actuallyautistic can relate to this and find commonly recommended sensory grounding methods, presumably helpful for many people, to be totally useless or even harmful.

@actuallyautistic

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Written by not sam on 2022-11-19 at 12:08

Yes, I came here from twitter but I was not cool on twitter even a little I'm not one of those twitterers who think they are so cool. I am not cool anywhere so don't worry

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