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Written by tesseraph on 2025-01-04 at 22:12

• soldier lets trans woman into the women's bathroom*

me: "oh my god the game where poor people fight to the death to escape crippling debt is woke now"

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Written by tesseraph on 2024-12-28 at 03:20

Nosferatu (2024) was soooo good. The cinematography, the colors, the soundtrack, everything.

Absolute Gothic perfection.

With how much I love The Witch and The Lighthouse, I've become a true Robert Eggers fan at this point.

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Written by tesseraph on 2024-12-28 at 03:15

I'm back in the US after living in Finland for almost a year and I needed to find lube (the personal kind) in a small town (albeit bordering a large one) and I simply could not.

One drug store, a gas station, and two grocery stores later and nothin'. Only saw condoms at one of 'em. (Do you need to ask for these at the counter??? unhinged)

Here's me used to finding this stuff at any grocery store of any size just next to the toothpaste. I genuinely felt like I was going insane.

I was getting sociologically bitchy about it to my American girlfriend, poor thing. I recall ranting something like "no wonder the teenage pregnancy rates are what they are".

Dual citizens might be hot and worldly, but damn we're annoying at times :blobRofl:

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Shared by tesseraph on 2024-12-12 at 16:08 (original by Cory Doctorow)

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Written by tesseraph on 2024-11-29 at 05:32

also, considering thank you's in the preface like this are usually to married spouses, writing one out to my girlfriend feels like the academic equivalent of lesbian U-Hauling

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Written by tesseraph on 2024-11-29 at 05:30

writing my final version of my master's thesis and putting in the thank you's right now

genuinely tearing up as i write "and thank you to [my girlfriend] for her unwavering love and support"

oh, my little gay heart :blobOhCry: :blobSob: :heartBi:

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Written by tesseraph on 2024-11-27 at 19:55

my boyfriend planned a date night for us to go to some cocktail bars and to play billiards (a hobby of his he's wanted to show me) so i picked out a cute cocktail dress

it was only once we started playing billiards that i realized that picking a low-cut mini dress was a very... bold choice for that activity :blobRofl:

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Written by tesseraph on 2024-11-07 at 22:24

~Belated Hallowen cosplay post (from before it all went so wrong)~

I got obsessed with Fisheye from Sailor Moon this fall and decided - in my never-ending delusions of grandeur - that I would learn to sew by making his standard outfit from the show... a full-body puffer suit.

I rented a sewing machine and got violently sucked into a four-day hyperfixation during which I barely felt hunger or thirst and slept like 2 hours a day. I was fully negligent on my work coz I literally couldn't think about anything else. But I had this done in four days hashtag-neurodivergent-excellence :sparklesRainbow:

I designed a 10 piece pattern off a combination of non-stretch jean jacket and jeans I had and made it in two layers. Instead of the normal way of quilting/puffing where you have a third layer of batting in between that you sew over to get the puff effect, in order to get a cartoonish level of puff I sewed the inner and outer layers together just the twp of them and rolled up batting in 2-4 layers and stuffed that in betweem them. Because the character is veey flamboyant and - also a fish that was turned into a human - I picked a sequin fabric for the outside.

A sequin. puffer. bodysuit. Just let that sink in :blobRofl:

Anyway, my megalomaniacal project turned out beautifully and I continue to not learn my lesson :ikuraCat:

My one key mistake: I tried to puff it out in the horizontal direction by adding extra fabric for the puffs only in that direction. That was... a bad idea, as it made the suit a tad short once the fill was in, but I got away with it by the skin of my teeth.

Ran out of time to get all the accessories, but I think the essense of the character is all here.

[#]Halloween #Cosplay #Sewing #SailorMoon

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Written by tesseraph on 2024-10-14 at 22:24

if someone had told me that transitioning would make my best guy friend (finally) interested in me, i would've sworn it off for sounding like a pandering hoax

but here we are, giving a goodnight hug that turns into a kiss that turns into making out at the door for a minute :sparklesTrans:

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Written by tesseraph on 2024-10-01 at 01:08

this is me and my gf at least once a month and it never fails to crack me up when i notice it happening again

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Written by tesseraph on 2024-10-01 at 01:07

two trans women

one grew up with gay men

the other with gay women

together they can get to the bottom of what it is that cishet men think and do

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Written by tesseraph on 2024-09-26 at 01:59

drawing an animal to be a girl by adding eyelashes is such a lazy convention

but it did make lesbianizing this anniversary card with two cute foxes wearing a bow and a bowtie a lot easier

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Written by tesseraph on 2024-09-25 at 21:48

bringing kitten heels to a whole new level

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Written by tesseraph on 2024-09-23 at 17:06

I knew for a long time that even as I dated "women" (most of whom actually turned out to be nonbinary, funny story that) that I was also interested in men, but pre-transition I was never quite felt comfortable pursuing them.

Granted, I was very much a serial monogamist before being poly so I wouldn't have been "out there", and I also just had zero self-esteem when it came to relationships pre-transition. Sure I felt loved, but in my head it was always more of an appreciation, contingent on being the perfect partner 24/7 with no needs and only a desire to please.

Now, as I've found my self-worth through transition and also have a boyfriend as one of my partners, it's honestly been such an awakening for me. Couldn't have a gay awakening like an honest queer person, had to have a straight awakening. My best friend and I joked for years that we're a bunch of barely-bisexuals who are mostly just lesbians... but I've fully walked that back now.

Coz boy howdy am I into being with a guy. Like, being with a guy used to be a thing I was curious about kind of as a bucket list item (I have a wonderful track record with women that I feel very secure in and regularly daydream about marrying my girlfriend), but my boyfriend's got me feeling like I genuinely don't want to be without a man in my life ever again.

3 years deep, transition continues to be so wild. Butterflies are a common symbol for good reason: not only do they become something beautiful and free, but more importantly they get reconfigured down to the molecular level, losing parts of themselves that no longer serve them and gaining parts that do.

[#]trans #transfem #bisexual

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Written by tesseraph on 2024-09-11 at 19:52

i always whine about being too tall (178 cm, 5'10") for men to make a move on me in places like clubs, because "they all (subconsciously) want a petite little girl they can tower over"

well, i stayed until closing at a night club for the first time in a while and in the last half hour two different men came to make a move on me

i guess i gotta stop bitching about my height sigh

(i didn't take either of them up on it, because i was there purely to dance and was completely immersed in it)

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Written by tesseraph on 2024-09-03 at 22:43

I really love making these connections with trans people, because I love seeing their eyes light up when they feel understood about something or experience some aspect of euphoria for the first time.

On the other hand, it points out how lonely it was for me. I had no one IRL. I had supportive friends - who meant a lot - but no one anywhere close to being transfem themselves. I knew it wasn't actually the case, but for how little the people in my life understood what I was doing, I might as well have invented trans womanhood.

I'm glad I can help these girls learn about makeup or the effects of HRT on sexuality or learning to feel confident about being subby in bed or what transfem basics have you, so they don't feel as alone as I did. But did I have to be so alone?

I guess I'll just be grateful I made it through.

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[#]trans #transfem

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Written by tesseraph on 2024-09-03 at 22:32

At the ripe old age of 30 with an entire 3 years of full-time transition behind me, I'm currently on my 4th transfem I am personally helping in person embrace their/her femininity or take the plunge on some aspect of transition.

Functionally, I am a trans elder for these girlies, but I feel about as mature for it as a minimum wage worker who got promoted to shift captain on their 2nd week coz the last one quit. looks around in disbelief "surely I'm not the authority figure here, right? right??"

[#]trans #transfem

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