i’m so sad, i miss being in love

update: i am so so sad & i miss being in love

update: crying in between meetings over how tremendously & phenomenally sad i am. i miss my wife so much even tho it’s my fault we broke up. i tell myself that maybe things could work better starting from this place, now that we are both not so reliant on substances. idk. so much is still the same even tho so much is different

update: i’m so sad & i miss being in love

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update: i miss being in love i miss being in love i miss being in love

update: i feel sooo sad. cried at a show about love today. i just feel so sad

update: can anyone else recently out of an 8yr committed cohabitational relationship tell me whether this feeling ever goes away or if i’m destined to always forever feel this sad about this for the rest of my life?

2025 update: i still email my therapist 2-4x per day (e.g. at 3:41am) to tell her why & how i think things could work better now: “maybe i’d be happy now :-) if we get together but live apart :-(“ i know relationships are not about “happiness” tho “unhappiness” was a main reason for breaking up. maybe having separate domestic lives would reduce my resentments?

“i’ve come to the conclusion that ‘getting over’ things doesn’t exist, it’s a combination of time & reframing & letting go.” i email her a thought like that & then send something like: “what if i decide that i don’t want to let go :-(“ god grant me the serenity prayer