what's up everyone, floundering again from my job. i love working!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
new years resolution: say "nyeh heh heh" more
alexander mcqueen on wikipedia home page. mark it down.
there was a massive shift in sci-fi writing around, i dunno, 2005? everyone started making "jokes". they all started writing like joss whedon. the infection runs very deep. be very wary of any sci fi novel written at or after this time.
dragon's egg is not this kind of book, it was written in 1980 and reads like a technical manual pretending to be a novel which is beautiful
for the first time in many years, i am changing computers. i feel sad to leave behind my trusty laptop, which i acquired in 2017. however it is beginning to finally die.
i am switching to an office surplus cheap as hell machine, but i think it will do everything i want it to, mostly running microsoft publisher and paint dot net. i'm a little sad i won't be able to lug it to the coffee shop, but i never do that anyway with my laptop because the hinge has been busted for years. (also, i might be underestimating my ability/comic desire to lug a desktop computer to the coffee shop)
sometimes i forget that being a morning person every once and a while is entertaining and fun
excited about a rather busy 2nd half of feb and first half of march im going to have
they should make goodreads as “cool with the kids” as letterboxd is. it would probably motivate me to read more but as it stands im scared to go on there. everyones review is longer than infinity
i think this weekend im gonna drink a crap ton of coffee for fun
got a cute lil strap n bag for my camera. im twee now (i was already twee)
finished a fire upon the deep, these are my thoughts. i thought it had some great ideas, most of them very well described, especially the pack intelligence aliens which are the main focus of the book. lots of cool applications of that one “thought”. the characters were likable, especially pilgrim, ravna, and amdi. definitely a book for dog lovers and i liked how cuddly everyone was with their dog alien friends. and that wasn’t even the only cool sci-fi concept. however, the actual plot was kind of a drag, slow and the narration got ludicrously repetitive in places. half the book was a lumbering setup of the final confrontation which ended extremely quickly. i think the book needed some more twists and turns or 200 pages removed.
i’m glad i read it but i don’t think i’ll read the prequel or sequel. also, the book has a really good audiobook narrator. he had a fun voice and was probably 30% percent of my enjoyment of the book. thank you peter larkin
still feeling extremely powerful
almost groundhog time......
i am beginning to feel extremely powerful
i like the little preview of the new OFF soundtrack, though you can never beat pepper steak. that is one thing i (a "gamer") like about video games and their existence as an amalgamation of every other art form is that sometimes you replace the soundtrack and everyone argues over which one is better until the end of time, see: sonic CD
after much research i have determined that this is the ultimate lo fi beat to study and or relax to
=> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-_3Ni4SjupU
thinking of challenging myself by making this whole zine sans serif. a dangerous decision
^^update no it's too scary
flipping through a random issue of the new york times from 2002 and wow they really wanted to grind iraq to dust back then huh (they still do it's just on the back-burner now)
oh and two pages later there's an insane pro-israel article. you don't have to look hard for this stuff apparently
this shit is crazy
=> https://youtu.be/uUuM8NdmaAU?si=CoMvwB_acNf1acEU
youtube has been recommending me video essays from channels with like 5k subscribers and it's awesome. i feel like i'm hearing the voice of the people
i think i got myself out of the worst of it. proud of my self
doing some online research about seasonal affective disorder and what i have learned is i am going through menopause
just encountered one of the few fancy binder clips in circulation at work. it was like being taken out onto the ballroom floor...
i refuse to give in to the big sad. im not gonna wait around to not be depressed. im gonna do it myself. im gonna climb out of it like climbing a ladder… some kind of… rowen’s ladder…….
really weird day i think because of the cold. even my dog was feeling sleepy.
im trying to think of interesting indoor spaces to take pictures of with my camera
i need the snuggie yall
spent the whole day playing factorio and it made me remember that factorio is actually pretty boring. but it was fun to play for one day
sometimes i think maybe i have written most of what i have to say. it’s not true, but in some ways it’s true. my dad is always talking about writing a self help book “so people dont make the same mistakes he does” which is funny, but also i understand the urge. once you have cutely, cleverly, and bookishly danced around every salient point of life story, what else can you do but say okay here it is exactly.
bored as hell 2day
tiktok banned shortly after i get the most likes i ever got on my tik tok (75 likes). coincidence no.
hi workout flounder, i just went home and worked out and now i feel like a god-king. although the ddr was not kind to me today, i tried some of the really hard shit and got my ass handed to me
=> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kf0ZvY2usbY
good time for my favorite twin peaks scene
frick i shouldve worked out last night im sitting here at work with too much energy
winter's trick: cold so you lose all desire to do anything, get warm for a minute and then you go crazy and want to sprint out of the office. i'm gonna be one of those old people who move to arizona and live in those little tiny homes in the desert, i can't do this and it's not even bad
could noooot get out of bed this morning. too cold, too snowy, i'm at my limit. managed to get to work at noon. now i'm here in my office with my tea, i feel good. but jesus christ
david lynch dead????? we lost a real one today, damn
i think the "nintendo switch 2" as they call it will be worth buying in ~4 years, maybe there will be something good to play on it then
proud to have normalized writing in all lowercase in the microsoft teams chat of the "young professionals" at my workplace
GAMER RANT: mixed feelings about the nintendo switch 2. part of why i was a nintendo freak in high school was because they would come out with like the "nintendo pole" and the console was a pole you had to hit with a giant bat really hard to play the game. now theyre just doing the nintendo switch again but i dunno the graphics are better? release the pole cowards
salivating at the 49 degree high prediction on friday i think this snow should melt now please
i have been consistently staying up until 2am and then taking a ~3 hour nap in the evening. this is probably one of the "bad sleep schedules" people talk about (in hushed tones) but i dunno man sometimes you gotta switch it up ("switch it up" = winter depression)
recovering from yesterday's plastic surgery (eye job)
they raised my rent by 50 bux a month X-X
did a substantial amount of actual work at my job today
the rumors are true, they cut my eyelid open. they went in there and took out my stye. it hurt a little when they needled in the numbing stuff. after that it felt like someone was trying to put my eyelid on as a glove. the doctor was very buff and told me i might pass out. after the surgery, i went back into the streets and remembered where i live, who i am, and what i like to do.
work. work. work. work. work. work. work. work. work. work. work. work. work. work. work. work. work. work. work. work. work... work.
runescape is a rhythm game whose beats are measured in months. it is a rhythm game in the sense of circadian rhythm. it invites you to examine the rhythm of your own life.
i was talking to moldgold and ztbd yesterday about how half the time i’m really good at talking to people at parties and half the time i feel like i forgot how talking even works. last night i forgot how talking works again but i still had a good time and am having a good sunday
i am henceforth instituting my “open windows, closed door” dating policy in which i flirt with people i think are cute but i will not ask anyone out for a while because i think i need to work on myself. i should probably make another zine
somehow made it to my eye appointment and back using advanced drifting techniques. theyre gonna cut my eyelid open on tuesday...
not dating anyone is weird because my beacon of fondness loses focus and becomes directed at the entire world and that can be overwhelming but also sometimes amazing
i think next i would like to be fond of the entire world and also someone specific at the same time. i would like to pull that one off if i can
floundering from my house while the coffee i drank at the coffee shop is making me feel like electrons and protons are actually just “love bits” because the world is made of love
grim sentiment hovers on the horizon as week of working from home makes local citizen idi blasks realize life would be so much cooler if they didn’t have to work This Damn Job
floundering from the local coffee shop. you can flounder anywhere if you have the grit
i have finally finished part 4 of 5 in 2666. wow, it was really good and also so sad. now i will finish the damb book
oh god theyre giving me the option to work from home tomorrow again. cool but also i’ll go crazy
cheerily productive day today after a very lazy day yesterday. proud of idi blasks
me every time i sit down to make the tiniest bit of art: "i have to make god this time"
did some good stuff today. took 2 long snow walks, did some cooking. hung out with my friends who are chill and kind people. grateful for the joy i am able to feel in this life.
i think this will be a powerful year for me. i have the foreboding and electric sense that something insane is going to happen
woke up last night in the middle of the night and thought about my entire life for 45 minutes and shockingly it was good, i kind of recentered myself. have been thinking abt grace and kindness and using them consciously. god grant me the wisdom to know the difference between what i can change and not and all that. i think i've had my head down a bit and forgot to sort out the difference
excited about the snow this weekend !!!!
happy new years flounder
hungover
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