i think it was amina i think it was jawaher i think it was zahra. i want to know the first lady who showed you kindness i want to know what makes you the way you are i want know what deprivations make you so depraved. and i want to tell you that youre an attentionseeker but all i said was that youre annoying and that i knew it by the pictures you put on. im curious curious curious about the time you spend rotting because it shocked me and thrilled me and i love when youre something new because im so used to that same old same old being mean racist ableist self. i love to imagine your moments of vul ner abil ity. what do you mean youre not anymore