new year thoughts

01/01/25

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main focus: making things out-of-the-ordinary. creating memories. overcoming the home-body introvert instincts (reinforced by the partner and generally being covid-conscious) to try and like... make life. seasonal stuff, special occasions, but also Going And Experiencing things, un-gluing from the computer etc.

i do want to continue a kind of low-spend thing. it went relatively ok most of last year with only one impulse purchase. everything else was in the parameters of "special occasion" or building up our physical media library. of course it will be a bit different what with making adventures happen. i'm trying to strike a balance. i'm not saving because i really need to, i'm simply trying to not spend as a cure for boredom or discomfort. i don't want to go to the other extreme where all spending is Bad and i end up forgoing experiences and making life a little fun.

the mirror to the low-spend is building a better relationship with and appreciation of the objects already in my life. i feel there's still room to cut them back, especially tarot decks unsurprisingly. still too much stuff being a distraction. but i did progress quite a bit last year with understanding what is and isn't a "good" deck to me (in terms of reading with it). and i did let go of many decks that were lingering around for no real reason.

as to using stuff - i'm going to try to keep to my new moon tarot practice, perhaps documenting it on the tarot forum for some sort of accountability. regular monthly readings for friends and family. and if i feel i could do with more, i'll offer the occasional reading on mastodon, as previously. i have no problem with using my art supplies/not buying more so i'm not worried about that whole area.

aside from the active adventuring and the passive not-spending, i do want to get better at checking in with myself. i think i wrote here previously about the mini-check-ins, just a few breaths to see what i need, what's next. i started doing that last year, but starting and successfully continuing are two different things. i feel my daily routines have disintegrated a bit (maybe to do with partner's time off?) and i anticipate each check-in to help me get back on track with those. is it perhaps time to clean or exercise or read that book i've started? this too is a way to un-glue from the internet and introduce variety.

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